Since I have been gone

Honey

My life is awful without you. I can't sleep well because I think of you. I haven't talked to my friends because they are too busy for me.

I have tried to help my family but I have made my dad feel sad, my mom cry and my grandma cry. MY grandmother got divorced twice, had a rough life, and now has had her favorite grandson make her cry. I am so rotten.

I wanted to be alone so I could focus on me but people here make me sad. I don't belong here. I shouldn't have ran away.

Honey I will go to school soon, I will let things go away. I have tried to think happy and realize I am the one who put myself in this position. Honey for as long as I live I will regret running away. I can't cry because if I do it will only make it worse.


Sweetie I am yours, I am going to marry you, and you are my better half, you are everything to me. The things we shared and did are far too important for me to stay here. I have to go to school because I paid for them. I wrote Mr. Jeong about teaching in Suwon college. Honey I want to come back for you. I don't want you to be sad and feel horrible.


Is there anything I can do?
I am sorry I couldn't talk more, honey call me whenever you can ok. I bought a calling card it doesn't work I am so angry. Honey~ I will study and come back for you please study too ok. WE can find something together. Don't cry or be upset I don't want this.

I know its hard and I know that our situations are good but we can Fight.

Home is not what I remembered it and I want to leave Asap. Honey I want you to love America and I want you to love my family but making my family cry isn't what I thought would be good homecoming. I guess I am too changed. Ugly transformation


I see you and you are my HOPE. I will never Quit or give up on you. Don't worry tell me what you think. I read your stories and I love them but I don't want you to feel bad. I will give you anything ok