Memory Flashes

I have been home for almost a week. Its Saturday and it means I haven't worked for a week.

I am cleaning my room, I am getting rid of things I don't need at all anymore and trying to make a new transition in my life...back at my college town.


My mind is racing with thoughts of Christina. I keep playing in my mind all the things we did and all the fun we had. I think too much and its because I am a serious person. I am going back to Missoula in order to take a break and suck in a deep breathe in order to see the future that awaits me.

I am scared because for the first time I can't do it alone. My right arm is missing. My work at Yale is complete. I know its the best. The job was a mess for me and its only reward is that I finished it so now I may have a good chance at getting better job. The other reward is that it gave me the love of my life.


I stand here in my home just imagining possibilities and dreaming of better opportunities.

Im looking forward to next week and the coming September. September always seems nicer. The weather is cooler, the coming of fall is like a new start.

I miss my Shuske so much I hope I can do this alone because I don't feel good finding my own way now.