Fighting Loneliness

In 2 days I will be able to stop going to the library at night^^ I want to stay at home and be able to surf the internet freely without having to go see freshman at the school and wait for a computer.


I feel so horrible sitting in my apartment alone again. I keep thinking to myself that there is something I should be doing. It has unfortunately given me a headache. I am waiting for my friend to call me but he doesnt seem to care anymore. Since getting back I met him once and it was by chance.

I realize I am all alone really and the best thing to do is just to get homework done and look for a new job to save us money. I am fighting cause I don't ever want to stop and give up.

I know that this is going to be well and ultimately exciting someday. Right now I am trying to save money and not buy a lot of things. Its almost September. September is my month to actually enjoy. The weather is perfect here and I can focus on my studies without interuption. Its amazing how 3 years ago I was all about playing and wanting to not study all the time but now I am liking homework cause it keeps me busy.


I want to go to the gym too soon. I hope I can so I can get more muscles for you^^

I am so happy right now though because I couldn't ask for a better future wife and for the first time in my life I know what I want^^

i will start doing more hobbies and try to get a fresher outlook too. Its hard for me to adjust still because I have been gone for a long time.

I dream of making a better future with you as soon as possible. I also think that I don't care about here right now either. I am not undergrad student but I am not a grad student either. I am just here. I am looking for opportunities and thinking of you all the time. I am going to go home now so I can get your phone call soon

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I love your stories sweetie! It makes me happy to get up in the morning to find your emails/story for me^^ I love all you do for me and more than that I LOVE you.