Heu No Ni

Heu No Ni is original Korean word, not derivated from Chinese or Japanese. It means "Missing someone so much and yearning or worshiping" As you already know this we always yearn each other so much. Whenever I go to bed or get up, I dream of talking to you. Your voice makes me happy and not to worry about you.

I know you have hard time there nowadays. It makes me sad and think of your health a lot. Everything which you had, heard, saw, ate and told is very important issue for me. We affect each other so much. Because I love you so much and also you love me so much, too. I know we will do this continuously until we meet together again.

Certainly September is like a new start. You will get a good job, meet good friend, enjoy your life there. Both you and I will have busy everyday. In my case, there's no extra teacher in our academy, so Viki and I have to work more. Last week, I had 32 classes including six more classes. And I finished telephone teaching for over 50 kids. I was proud of myself a lot.

Everyday I do my best and want to have busy life. Even a little free time gives me recalling. Sometimes it made me drop my tear and sometimes smile. Today I went to my grandma's grave. It's located in the countryside and it took for an hour for me to go there. My family didn't care about cleaning there. So there were lots of weed around the tomb. I worked a lot with my parents, sister, and relatives. We pulled out weed and cut big trees which can make large shadow on the grave so the grass can't grow.

At that time, I thought that we cleaned your house for a week. I forced you clean, pack, sweep, rub, and wash. This memory always makes me sad and finally drop tear. I shoud've enjoyed being with you more at that time. After you left me, I yearn you a lot. I noticed how much I relied on you and you cared of me. Being with you was the best medicine for me. Today I heu no ni you and I will heu no ni you more and more.