HOMECOMING ANGUISH

Honey~ I came back to Missoula. This is my home. I saw my family and survived the reunion, I saw a couple friends back in Kalispell and was happy to see some of them.


Now I am in Missoula. I stick out so much and its scary. I dress more like a man from Asia than an American. I desire Korean things and also to be alone. I feel strange doing the things that I used to do.

I ride my bike and my mother ruined it so it actually is uncomfortable to ride. I just finished my first and only class today. Tomorrow I will have two more. I hope they aren't difficult. I still don't have internet at my home so I will have to wait until I get it so I will not be able to talk to you yet. I may go to my Kroean friends house though so if I do I will call you on Skype.

Honey I am the old man on campus there aren't many people I know left. Since getting here. I got my heat and electricity set up, moved into my house, spent a night in the dark and no shower because the water system didn't work yet and I still have a lot of personal things to do. I wish I had furniture. This week is going to be hard for me.


I read your story and I keep thinking of me back in Korea and wishing I was still there. I had hoped so much to have left knowing more and leaving you in a better place I am truly sorry for that.


Life here is difficult for me because my family/friends don't understand how serious I am about you. I met you, liked you, loved you and want to spend the rest of my life with you. I thought about this for at least 6 months honey. My friends think its a joke and it hurt me.

I honestly can't say how much I love you but I do know that I dream of an ideal situation for us. I hope that you will not worry so much about everything. Sweetheart I dont know what to do here other than try to do well in my classes. I am keeping busy and finding things for us^^

I found a dvd set of Law and Order SVU so I can watch a lot of Elliot if I had tv.

I want to buy some nice clothes for you and I soon. I hope I get friends who will want to come to my house I guess I have been gone too long. If you call me I don't care when you do its 4 in the morning or 4 in the afternoon ok.


When I think of work in Yale honey I think of the 3 of us making the most of it in a weird situation. If I could have my ultimate wish it would be to live with you here in America (maybe missoula but it doesn't have to be) and I would even go to Korea again.

I just want to be in your life. You know this right?

I will not stop working and take much breaks. I want you more than anything.


So as I walk the campus I feel a little awkward because I don't know anyone here. School is more difficult than I would like it to be. I am working though and I will continue to work hard.


You will be so happy with me^^


Honey~ I also think ice coffee is good I will try it. I went to the store but I only bought a little food. I will buy more soon once I can get my routine going. Life is too fast again for me.

Talk to you soon!