Crawling Wish

I had a long day. I had a day where I had two classes. One class was really boring and the other was hard to follow. I wanted to just go home and relax.


I am praying to just return back to where I was the most happy.


This post is filled with a lot of honesty.


I worry a lot and I am too serious about a lot of things. I am endeavoring to make my new home the best I could possible in order to really make something start off. I wish I could find a job here soon but for now I am thinking I am just going to off to put my nose to the grindstone and study hard.

I will never change why I am motivated the way I am. I haven't liked the state of affairs things seem to be in. I didn't study Reverse Culture shock but the irony is that people don't have a way to deal with ex-patriots when they come back to their country.


I am changed, my family and friends have changed as well and its a scary thing. I am scared now these days because I gave up the thing I held the most dear in order to just visit with my family and friends for awhile. I wanted to go back to school to try to get ahead a little and make a brighter future.
I never meant to destroy anything or make people feel bad. That's why I will step up my efforts to insure a better future soon.

I am trying hard to save a lot of money and thats why I am living as cheaply as possible. I will be busy with last minute projects this week and after this week I will have a little more free time!

So thats my first 3 weeks back in America. Today marks my 21st day. I am still stumbling down the road and trying like mad to look for my way back home and a place I will never leave again... I am so sorry.