Life Dreams

There are days when I shudder at the fact of what our world is becoming.

The entire world is changing and its sometimes hard to understand why or how.

There are many things that I would like to say to this posting.

To begin with lets talk about America.
America was founded on good ideals that have naturally changed throughout the course of history. America is no longer the dreamland that it once was. Unfortunately it has become a hated nation due to events that happened prior to my birth as well as during my lifetime.

Certain things like health, money, food and family are universal concepts. They are so simple to follow to but Political charades has made people blinded by close mindedness and false concepts.


I would like to talk about my ultimate fantasy world. In an age where the Economy is full of surprises and fluctuations it is important that we hold onto what is truly important. I wish money wasn't important I wish that people could see things for what they truly are. I truly do believe in PANGEA a place where I truly see a Utopian formulating.

I went from rags to riches because I stepped out of the zone and went to Korea. I went there with the idea of learning about myself and finding a new way in this world. I heard that many foreign teachers are breaking contracts and thus leaving a bad mark on Korean society.

In my case I believe some directors deserve it. I will be brutally honest and I hope Mr. J sinks after the hell he put me through. I have yet to meet a more selfish man than him.

I feel bad for leaving my loved one there.


Our world stinks honey. Right now I am not feeling good about anything when it comes to the state of the Economy. I am finding it hard to make a living and just like you I worry about our future cause the way the things are going its full of to much uncertainty.


Here is the truth that we need to live by. 1. I love you so much and nothing can change that. If I don't have much money I will always find a way. I wish the state of affairs was better in this world. I lost faith in America along time ago and wish that the world would pull together more than we have so far. The world is never going to be perfect but our world can be. I am going to try more and more to make things possible. I wrote a Korean today about working in Korea but I havent heard from him yet.


I may be too harsh in my opinions but in my experience the only thing that is going to make the world work is the Love that you and I so fortunately have. I don't like the Economy ways in America right now, Korea may be suffering from some problems as well but no matter what we can live comfortably.


I know our way will lead to happiness that will make people envious of us.


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I thought a lot about things today. I had lunch with Park and he mentioned that movie star you were telling me about. I feel bad for people who always feel that they need to take their own life as a way to escape. It hurt me so much to here my old roommate that killed himself. I hate even writing those words. I was his only roommate he had outside his family and I couldn't talk to him cause we separated ourselves. Tomorrow I am going to meet his ex-gf cause I still feel badly about abandoning him a long time ago.


So much news and so many things to tell you about. I value the same things that you do. I want everything to work out well and I will fight for you no matter what. Building a family with you and sharing what the world has to offer is the best way I think. Someday I want you to come to America.


Anyways,
I think of the world a lot differently than many people do. I don't want the American Economy or politics to be involved in wars, stealing natural resources from other countries or involved in stupid things.

My involvement in America is simple. I want to find a good job, raise a family, and share the American dream of Life, Liberty and the pursuit of happiness in my own way. I want to unify other cultures and make people stop hating me or America.


I say me because I ever since I was a child I thought about caring for other people. When I played with my brother we played with toy animals and gave them human voices. I always had my stuffed animals get along and be friends. I was a cute baby who believed that Everyone could love each other. I later witnessed hateful things that I didn't like cause I believed I was capable of good relationship with everyone. I just want to make that happen.

Honey I wrote a lot of things. I thought I could write something better make it flow but I think its just a lot of thoughts.

Tomorrow I have one class. I have my roommate coming, my friend is coming and my brother may come down. I am tired of listening to politics. I am tired of seeing people act scared or yell at me. People have yelled at me so much since getting back I hate it, and I don't really want to be here now.

This world is so big that honey we have to do whats right for us. I wish I hope I don't cry tonight when I go to bed ...I want to fill my head with dreams of just making wonderful things happen.

i don't know what else to say right now. I am so in love with you and happy I have the best girlfriend in the world. I will write more soon