Winter time

I am trapped in my house and its due to the coming of Snow. I find it odd that it has come this late but finally here it is. I ran to the school today for the first time and thought I wasnt going to make it because it was so cold. I went because Park wanted to have breakfast and it was my last time I will run down the windy snowy streets of Missoula for food.


I stayed at my home most of the day packing and preparing for my trip to go back home which may come as late as Monday now. Its hard to believe that school is over. I really hope that the snow melts fastly because I would like to go for a walk again. I don't want to go out at all now.


My room is looking pretty bare and I am smiling^^

I want to move into my new home where I truly would like to make it my better half's home as well someday.

I have been thinking about a lot of things lately. I was looking back at all the memories that happened in the past 3 months. Its hard to believe I used to be riding a bike to school to using my two cars of my two roommates.


When I get to Korea it is my hope to create a new blog. Honey its my belief that you can sell your quilt works, and our writing can open up more doors. I am reading my friends blog to get some ideas and think that we can create an amazing thing filled with stories, our love, and our ideas for our building blocks of our future.


Honey less than 10 days until I get to see you. I am so happy to think this. I will never again make you sad when I write and I will try more to use what I learned here.


I will go to bed soon as I sit here and wait for you. I hope your Sunday has been fun and you were able to get the answers you wanted. Love you so much
talk to you soon

My one and only True Sa Rang hae

I thought Missoula would give me some answers that I had been asking myself for a while. I came back to Missoula 4 months ago making a new start after spending time in Korea. Tomorrow is probably the last day I will be in Missoula for a long time. I am Looking forward to leaving actually. Its time I move on. I have said goodbye to everything I want to remember in Missoula. When I return again I want to be with Shuske and wander aimlessly and just enjoy the great feelings Missoula is capable of.


I am going home now. I will go home to unpack, re-pack and say goodbye to Kalispell, my hometown. This is very important to me and kind of sad because I really don't care if i ever return there.

I am ready to go back to Korea and make the best possible future there could ever be. I know that I am lucky, I just haven't realized it yet. My future is shining bright and I want to do all I can do in order to make our future burn brightly. My vision has always been cloudy but I have found someone who makes me see clearly.


I go to bed tonight after re arranging my room for the last time. I have packed a lot of things and will finish to do this tomorrow...

Nothing else matters to me now than building a future and creating joy in the best source of happiness in my life. There's no boundary's. I love you so much and in 7 days I will be closer to you than now. you're all I think of and care about.

Standing Tall

I am done with school again. I will only go back to school if I am to go with you to a grad program in the future. I had a long day that I would just as soon forget. my roommate fixe his car after I bought him the part. He seem to be ungrateful because he complained so much about me afterwards. I almost punched him in the face. Honey I am sure he is going nuts.


I feel pressure living here and dealing with my friends who seem to be immature and have strange views of me. Honey to be brutally honest the only thing that keeps me standing Tall is You.


Honey I love you so much. Part of the reason I love you so much is because you can make me go from feeling terrible to feeling so high. When you kiss me I will probably die and feel like going to heaven.

my new roommate is cool. he can be weird but he is more understanding and more fun that Paul. I feel so bad for Paul.

Today he didn't want to go get money using his change. Honey he has no money but he many coins. he could have paid for a 3 dollar movie easy but he refused because he was afraid of his image in public. Its weird because when he goes out with me he only wears sandals and a t-shirt with sweatpants. Its funny he cares about how he spends his money but not how he looks. I hope you can see what I am talking about.


Anyways, after monday I will be done for sure. I will turn in my work as it is and be able to move on with things.


I am going to start our new blog soon too!

Love you so much and I will write again soon

12/6/2008

Nick

Kim-Palmer

MY Darling Babe
You are the foundation that holds me up. I adore you so much and you ignite my passion when all is missing from me.

Coming of December

Honey your story made me sad a little. Sometimes I feel if I didnt leave you wouldn't be feeling this. I worry a lot about your health because you shouldn't have to feel so bad a lot. Honey I don't sleep well at night I cry too much because I left you. I shouldn't tell you this but I tell you because I care so much. I truly never want you to feel that way again. I have been praying for my nightmare to end ----where I can just stay with you and not care about anything else.


I hope you don't feel sad reading this story now. When I am coming in a few weeks at most I will have such a wonderful time with you. I have so much things to look forward to and I don't want you to worry now. Honey I am the happiest man in the world cause of you and I just want to make everything right for you. I don't want you to feel badness. I wish I could make your headache go away and if I didn't leave I would have helped.



Honey very soon I will be there and I will be able to do more than I can now. I have so many good dreams for us that everything is possible and we will have a good time.


I am sorry I haven't been able to talk to you much. I was sad msotly cause I couldn't talk to you. my mom and brother were ok but it was hard to not be able to wake up to you.

Babe I can't express to you how much I love you all I know is that this is the month tat I have wanted for long time I never want to leave you again.


I love you so much don't worry please. Honey I will come asap. I just feel so happy that I got you with me. I miss you and just want you to be happy..

Honey I got so much to tell you soon

talk soon

love you

Sickness

Honey, I've had a headache for a week. I really hope I am better but my headache doesn't leave me at all. I don't know why I have still a slight headache. I already took medicine, slept a lot and eat enough but it's so so. I think because of cold I have dizzy and headache.

Did you have good time with your mom and brother? I had good time with my brother. He came home on Saturday and we went out to see a movie. I saw "007 Quantum of Solace". It was good, but I was too tired to pay attention this movie.

Today I sewed a lot. I made two Christmas cards for your parents. I am still making your brother's. I love sewing and seeing my quilt works but my right index finger hurt and have injury. It will be cured soon.

Tomorrow morning, I will be happier than today. Cause I will use your Cherry blossom body products. ^^ Every kids would ask me to use what kind of perfum. It smells so sweet and lovely like you.

December is around the corner. This month is the happiest month we will have and we will do lots of things together soon. I can't wait to see you honey. The weather is colder, we will love more each other. ^^

I really miss your bosom too much. LOVE YOU HONEY. talk soon.

Kalispell

Today I have been home for the first time in 3 months or more. I have only been hoem for a total of 10 days in the last 2 years. Its always kind of shocking for me to come home and witness how much things have changed.

My cousin and I noticed a for sale sign on the house which means anyone can buy it if they want it. My mom hopes to be moved out here in the next year. The house looks a lot different too.


The rooms are clean, a little empty and changed. My mom changed my room without asking me which makes me a little perturbed. I am getting rid of more things though. I am also packing my personal things here so if my mom moves I can put them in a storage for our future living. I am excited for this.


Honey, I cleaned the house today, I sold my old computer (the one I had in Korea) and got 100 dollars for it! I am happy because I made some money now. I want to sell more things. I think I have a date with Hollister again soon :)


I am too addicted to shopping. Tomorrow I will eat with my mom and brother. I hope it goes fast. Mom is cooking a turkey even though there's only 3 of us. She has been at work all day too so I haven't talked to her much.

Dad was fine. He bought us breakfast and just talked a while. I think I will see him again on Saturday when I am going back to Missoula. On the way back I will see my cousin. I am excited for that. Honey as I told you I have great cousins and hope you can meet them soon.


I am a little tired today now because I did a lot of work around the house. Washed the dishes, went to the post office, sold my computer, and now will cook some food cause I am starving.


Love you so much.

Kalispell is good but I am looking forward to getting back to Missoula, and even more importantly YOU.

Endevearing to be Closer to You

Today was my last real weekend in November. I will be going home this week to be basically saying goodbye to Kalispell. Its going to be kind of ironic but I think that this week will be my last time in Kalispell for a long time. I may go back to fly out of the airport soon but its the last time I will be calling it home. I believe my mom will move out soon.


I hope that this last 10 day of school is smooth. I don't want to be in school anymore. The next time I want to be in school is to be studying by your side. Honey I want to share college life together. I want the two of us to live comfortably studying something important and enjoying the nice atmosphere that the University has.

This week went by so fast. I think this last week will even be faster. I only have two days of school and then I will be able to visit some cousins of mine and see my family. I am sorry but I can't use the computer at all for a few days :(

I will write many stories though about Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving is something that I want you to enjoy with me someday. Its a good setting for family. Our family^^

Tonight I am just going to rest and relax. I have to go to campus early tomorrow because Paul finally has a job and will get up early tomorrow. I won't be able to talk a lot tomorrow I am afraid.


Our future is going to be so full of happiness, I know that the economy and everything isn't as promising but Our Love will make us endure and beat any challenges we face. As always, I have so much Love for you my face is glowing with happiness all the time because of you (*__*). When you go to bed tonight just think happy thoughts and don't care about bad things.


honey when I see you I want to teach you billiards, swim more, hike, everything *~*

talk soon honey

Knitting my life with you

Honey
Nowadays I am trying to think about my future more than before. I don't know what I have to do yet, but I am pretty sure I really want to be with you and spend my life with you. I can't imagine my life without you.

I was loved, am still loved and will be loved by you all the time. Maybe someday our love will fade a little bit, but we will love each other forever.

The weather is getting colder. I shivered a lot at work and felt the wind like the edge of the sharp knife. When it blew, I couldn't feel anything on my face, but hurt all my face. Today I forgot to bring my mittens which you bought me last year. I regreted a lot all day.

Today I did impulse buying. Viki showed me a great blue shirt and I just bought it without thinking. At that time I didn't think about my money in my wallet. Whenever I buy something for you, I just buy them unconciously and after buying them I notice the fact that I buy them for you.

I am wonder how great our future is and dream of it in my dream all the time. Being with you will make me happy and make enjoy my life. Love you so much and thank you all the time.

Family

This weekend I saw my dad and my brother. It was good to see them. I really hope that you can see them soon. I know that they will love you so much. It was nice to just be able to get away from my roommate. He doesn't do anything.

Honey the more I think about Family the more I am really hoping to make a family with you. WE got the best chemistry makeup in the world. It makes me so happy when you talk about my father.

Family is so important to us and its something that I want to share with you the most.

This weekend I also visited my new favorite store Hollister. I hope we can go there together someday. I think when we live in a bigger city and different place we will be able to try many wonderful opportunities. DYNAMIC BUSAN will be a good start.


Honey nowadays I can only think about you. I don't want you to think about Bankruptcy that will never happen to you as long as I am alive. I love you too much for you to let that happen.

So this week will be especially interesting its my last week that I hope to care about things. my brother jsut walked so I have to go talk soon^^ love.

Dynamic Busan

On Saturday, after work, I went to Busan to carry my brother's clothes including two shirts, a sweater and a jacket. Before I went to work, I was so~~ busy. Swimming, buying clothes, coming back home from Bean Pole outlet and then going work were my schedule.

You know how much I love swimming in the morning, especially when my condition is bad. I swam for 20 mins and shopped for 40 mins. There wasn't any room to breathe slowly. Cause my work time was fixted, so I had to be there before 1 p.m.

I drank a cup of milk at home and had hard time at work. My throat got worse so I couldn't teach well. In fact, I couldn't talk at all in TD1 class which was the last class on Saturday.

Meeting people who I already knew is good when I am alone at the public place such as train station. While I was ordering snack, Susan in MA1 class found me. We got on the same train and her family sat next to me. I slept a little and watched animation on my i-pod.

My brother was waiting for me at the station with his girl friend. Brother and I had Steamed pork soup with bone, some vegetables and kimchi inside.

On the next day, Complaining girl and other friend came to Busan. We had great lunch in front of the Busan University which was my school once and where I used to inline skating and study Semantic. Some buildings were changed and interior was better than before. They looked more morden and high image.

After lunch we visited Gwangan Beach where we went as our last travel. Wide Sea made us slient. Although the weather was a little cloudy and windy, my mind was so happy. I thought of you a lot and reminded how much we enjoyed the sea. We'll have the same time there soon.

See you soon in Dynamic Busan. ^^

The Notebook

I have never seen the movie The Notebook because I don't need to. Its a Hollwood Love story that i know I have the real thing compared to the Hollywood version.

I am so happy today. I got a new notebook cover! It has a nice clip, good planner, and best of all best stitching. I love the design so much too. I have a wonderful cover, welcome sign (which I want to hang from our door on our first house whenever we get it^^, and a great keyholder too. I like sew works a lot because its more peronal and more meaningful. I cherish these items so much and always use them well. I have a glasses case as well for my reading glasses.

I will use my planner well. I have a weekly system of needing to update my appointment and meeting plans. This will especially get busy in January when I am teaching my classes. Yikes I can't imagine working right now.


Your package made me so happy. I will eat a lot this next week so hopefully I can gain a ew weight. my dad is coming tomorrow it will be nice to see him. I really do want you to meet him someday and as you already know I would help your father and mother too.

I feel so loved honey cause I got someone so special in my life I hope that everything goes well soon. I can't wait to see my new shirt and I am going to mail you something this Tuesday or Wednesday from Hollister! I love that place

WHO.A.U hollister, Abercrombie and Fitch SAME SAME

I like the Beach look and want us to enjoy that sensation someday. Babe I Love you so much when I tell you that I am dreaming of so much things I want to do with you. Show you America, hold your hand when crossing a street or walking in the middle of any place. Dancing in Snowflakes, Laying on the Beach, and many many more.


I love writing stories, talking to you, shopping, and cooking too.

I hope you have a good time in Busan!

New, New, New

Honey today I made my own bank account. I just put some money, but after a year I can get a lot of interest. Because of economy depression, most of banks suggest more interest than last year. It's good news for me though.

This year, I have got lots of new things from you. Apple I-Pod, New clothing brand Abercrombi, New calling card, New body lotion and bath products, New snack from America and Letters. I love these things a lot. Especially your letter and clothes. Oh I shouldn't foret to say this: Cherry Perfume ^^

New things usually makes me excited. Cause they have things to attract people. For example, we expect a lot before we open it and our heart beats rapidly more and more. I love this feeling. What can I get this time? What does he write for me? and etc.

Everthings from you are good for me. They make me look good all the time and I can show off everywhere. Sometimes I think I am like a princess. You have treated me like a beauty in the castle all the time. No one treated me like this well. Even my parents didn't treat me like you.

I am drowning in your love and I can feel how much you love me and treat me sincerely. I'll try to take care of you more and love you more. ^^

Chasing Missoula Downtown

Today I blew off some steam. I went downtown with Peter and ended up pulling some pranks. We had a lot of fun. It reminded me of old times. I talked to Peter about relationships, life and everything thats wonderful in life.

Honey we both agree that the best things in life are worth fighting for and that's why I am never going to stop loving you ever. I don't know if you worry about that or not.

I tried on some clothes as well and think we should buy some when i get there.

I am a little tired from laughing so much. I haven't laughed so much in a long time. I hope you are having a wonderful day

There's so much more I want to say to you right now but I will write more soon!

honey one thing I am realizing though is that I don't want to return to old times because I am needing something new now.

I really hope you had a good time at work and I am so happy to talk soon!

Loopity Loop

Today I went on a long walk. I was only gone for 1 hour but I went in a figure eight. I was a little lost but it gave me some time to think. Firstly, I am looking forward to leaving my apartment. Since Paul came I have not had the time I was hoping to have. He complains and doesn't do anything.


I did some homework and I think I am pretty much done with that. Today felt like a really long day though. I saw my grandma and her sister which was really nice. They treated me to a dinner. I enjoyed talking to them because we were able to converse normally without complaining.

I am looking forward to going back to school this week. This week should be relatively easy since I have another holiday off on Tuesday!
I wanted to go home but I am not so sure I can.


Honey when you get my letter I hope you realize just how much I love you and miss you. I want to be there for you so much to help you figure out everything. I am over the moon for you and going for a walk is the only way now that I can feel ok about things.

I love you so much and hope that you have a wonderful start of the week... I can't wait for you to get my package again ^^


Honey
When I read your last story it made me a little sad because as you already know... We can face a bright future together and someday it will look brighter. I really want you to not worry about that at all. I will do everything in my power to make sure we are taken care of and living comfortably.


Lets order online soon ok! I will order and bring and or send :) just let me know what you think

lOVE YOU SO MUCH

Sweet candy or Sour lemon

Honey today I spent almost whole day with kids whom you already knew. We went to Mcdonalds and had chicken burger sets. We made hair bands and they were so happy.

After meeting them, I thought of sweet candy or sour lemon. We love eating candy so much. They are sweet and the more we eat the more we want to eat it. They attract our attention. But this is not good for our health. Especially before we go to bed, we shouldn't eat this for protecting our teeth from cavity.

On the other hand, lemon is too sour and makes us frown. The taste is terrible. Its juice is essential and it gives us vitamin a lot. So we need to eat this, not candy.

Do you know why I say about this? I think working at Yale is like lemon. This place is not good for my health but I can get regular income every month. It's enough for me to live a month and save a little bit at the bank.

Talking with Mr.J is like candy. Cause whenever we talk about something he just praises me a lot. But after talking, I have more work. This is his irony though.

Anyway at this time, I like sour lemon is better than sweet candy. And I really want to find good and better job for me, but I am a little scared. I have to leave home first and then find some place to live and then get a job again. I will need some time to accustom and make new friends again.

I won't think about future yet. I just want to think about Present now. And I will find sweet candy at work.

Fog Lights

I went for a walk late at night. The air is filled with humidity and rain. Their seems to be drifting clouds ahead of me and everything is visible only if there are lights on it. Its actually kind of fun for me though.


Today I didn't do to much. I went to the Food For Thought Like I always do. I do this because I have found a food plan that would be a good thing for us. I want to make a good meal plan ideas. Its also a resturant for us later.


I did some of my homework and rested most of the day. Me and a friend of mine went shopping. I bought some jeans, and dress pants. Honey when I go to Korea I will buy good clothes with you^^ lets do more of this. Use the internet and I will help you get good things soon^^


I am slowly preparing myself for a busy coming year.

Today I am now starting to get tired unfortunately. I have a lot more to do and I am just happy I have one more day.


Honey I hope that this work week goes well. It should be an easy one I hope. As you said in your last post. Don't care about not doing some work. Mr. J is lame and he deserves to get bad things because of his stupidity and lack of working concept.


I am getting excited to being with you again soon


love you so much

XOXO

I will write more again soon as always.

Daily Report on Nov 7th.

I slept very well last night. I watched TV a little bit in the morning and swam a lot. Mom and I went downtown and found some good clothes. When she wore them, she looked younger and more elegant than her age. I was so happy to treat her and see her smile.

Next, we went to Lotte Mart to buy some cosmatic and food. A bottle of milk, a packet of candies, two packets of caramel and so on. Before we left there, we arrived at Sale zone and I bought a beige jumper with fur hood. It was so smooth, soft and warm. Honey sorry, this is my impulse buying but I know I would wear this jumper a lot. Maybe whole winter time.

As I told you on the phone, I wore your pink abercrombi knit today. It's thin but warm and comfortable. I think I have to buy more this types of clothes before you come here. There are no stores such as Hollister and Abercrombi. I don't want to order on the internet through another purchaser. If they want to sell imitation, we can't check if it's original or not.

Shopping has been getting one of my favorites since you left here. I had spent almost every weekend with you here. So I have only a few friends around me and they all live far from here.

If you come here, we can enjoy this more and I won't fall in love with internet shopping again. haha

Meeting old friends

I met my best friend Peter yesterday. WE don't fight so I am happy that at least one of my friends still knows how to laugh around here with me. We went downtown and had a few drinks and some food and I went to bed too late. I felt sickly in the morning but was ok. I went to school and studied for 3 hours and got my homework underway. I now know how to do it! I will do it this weekend and spend the most part resting.


When I was with Peter I thought of all the good times I used to have. Honey~someday I may want to make him best man.

I am sorry I couldn't talk with you much yesterday I was surprised at how many things happened at once.

After my studying I went back home and cleaned the kitchen, bathroom, mailed a letter again and watched some tv.


Meeting old friends is so nice but I am looking forward to begining my future soon.


I read your story and honey I don't want you to feel that. Our stories are honest. Sometimes they are good and sometimes so so. I am happy we have here to share our secrets, our letters, our phone calls and soon in person too. We are so meant for each other.


Jeff is gone so does that mean Mr. J will teach now?

Honey, I finish this story after I talked to you earlier today. I know that there are a lot of things going on in your life that are making you feel so stressed. As always I just want to do whatever it is that I can to alleviate those pressures. I am so happy thinking of everything.

I want us to get nice clothes so we feel warmer more comfortable and just feel better. I will watch tv and rest soon. LOVE YOU SO MUCH

Working like a cow is doing like a dumb.

Cold wind is blowing from the North. It's almost onset of the winter. We called this "Ipdong". It means beginning of winter.

After this, I had the test to go to University when I was a high school student. The weather was so cold and my test was ruined because of cold and warm air in the classroom.

Last year, I rarely caught a cold because of your help. We tried to eat healthy food and stay warm. When I was cold, you hugged me, made me wear warm clothes and took care of me so much. I think I will remind this every winter. Because it's one of important memories of mine.

Today I swam a lot and after swimming I felt dizzy a little bit. But I didn't care about this. At work, when I had break time, I felt slight headache. I know I will be better soon though. Tomorrow morning, I would tell you I am ok, so don't worry.

While Jeff was teaching MB3 class, Viki and I ordered friend chicken. When we just ate chicken, Mr. J came to the video room and started to complain about Miss Jeong. I couldn't understand, cause she has already made lots of mistakes, so he didn't need to explain about her mistakes at all at that time.

I thought it was just excuse. He would want to check ou break time. The more kids dropped the academy, the more he cares about our teaching skills and tests. I think some of kids quit there due to lots of homework which they can do at all in fixed time.

We shared chicken without treating him. Nowadays he just played in the classroom and Mr.J didn't touch him at all. His policy was so weird. If we work hard, he just ignores us. If we work harder, he tries to make us work harder and harder like a cow in the farm.

I really want to change this system. He doesn't know how to treat kids, especially young kids. If you and I set up our own academy, we will teach kids very well, but we won't earn money well. cause we don't have that kinds of skill at all. haha

There was a saying in Korea. "Work like a deligent cow and spend your money like a prime minister" I don't like this saying. Although we don't work hard, we can earn money and if we work under Mr.J, it was CWOT. Whenever we work hard, he expects more and more.

Let's work like a wise cat and spend money useful. Let's try not to work hard especially after work because of telephone teaching and syllabus.

Chilling in the heat waiting for watermellons

I couldn't think of a good title. Today I am mainly just staying at home and enjoying the warmth by the heater. It actually works unlike my old house.

School is going alright. I am struggling a little but nothing I can't figure out. This weekend I will finish a lot of homework and hopefully have some time to rest as well. I will be so happy when school is over.

I want nothing more than to go on trips and lay around with you... we got to do that a lot.


Today I went to the post office, watched a movie, studied for three hours and tried to not smile at my second best friend.

I am reading a little about Korea right now too for my class and I hope it will help me write a paper faster. I am not looking forward to writing a paper soon.

Today I also prepared for my contract in Korea. Honey I think this week you will be surprised. you got a package today, you will get a letter in a few days and you will also get a package in 7-10 days. Then you will get me in a month.

I can't tell you how much I love you. I think most of my friends stopped hanging out with me because I talk about you so much. J/k

Unfortunately I just don't get to see any of my friends anymore. I have seen Peter the most other than Paul and he was gone for all but this week.

honey as I prepare to go to bed I count my blessings that I have you in my life. You make everything I am working for all the worthwhile. You make me fight more.

I am a strawberry and you are a watermellon together we are the best STARBURST^^

lamb chops

Today was a very easy day! I only had one class and spent most of the day relaxing. I went on a hike and prepared for what most likely will be a busy last part of the month.


I am so excited to getting ready to going back to Korea. I think so much of this and sometimes I do feel sad because I do feel like I may have done wrong but my time is almost finished here so its getting better.

I made a good dinner it was tasty and I hope to do this for you. When you come here we can enjoy good food like this all the time.

I want to go on more hikes too! I really hope we can go together more.

Now I will just rest and relax a little before I go to bed. There's so much I want to tell you.
I know this is such a short story but I just wanted to tell you how much I love you and I will write more soon!

Love from Missoula, Montana

Oh honey, finally I got your mail. It contained one letter, one card and one picture. It was your baby picture. I loved it so much and now I am so happy to have it.

I noticed how much you love me and think of me every time, day, and month. I can't say how much I love you with written language.

Thank you so much. I was so so today because of Mr.J. He always make us feel bad and gives us more work than we can do everyday. You saved me today.

During my break, I got this from Miss Jung. She didn't say anything and just gave this to me. I was preparing my classes and a little surprised. My surprise changed happiness ASAP.

I couldn't read at work because some kids interruped me with their homework checking.

I loved reading your mail, letters and seeing your picture. You were smiling in the picture looking at me. haha

I AM SO HAPPY. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOREVER. WE ARE PERFECT. ^^

Mt.Juwang was so beautiful

I got up early in the morning because of sickness. My father's condition was bad, too. We all caught cold so I thought we wouldn't climb a mountain although we already made a plan about this. But father wanted to go there and feel fresh air and look beautiful scenery. The news reporter said that this week would be the best day to see yellow and red leaves.

We left home at 8:10 a.m. Nobody knew where the mountain was so we looked at the map and tried to find it. Sometimes we lost but finally we arrived there. There were lots of cars there already. It looked almost over 1000 cars. People walked like a fish in the river. They walked here and there and it looked like a line because of their colorful clothes.

We rode a shuttle bus from parking lot to enterance of the mountain. It took for 15 mins. I was packed like a sandwich. When I went to the restroom, there was a long line. Someone without any concept in their head was cutting in the line. Mom was so angry because of this, but I didn't say anything cause I wanted to save my energy. They were not worth talking.

Father brought a map and it showed us there were lots of trails and peaks. We went to Mr.Juwang and it took for an hour. But we all didn't have good condition so we took rest a lot and ate lunch before we arrived on top of the mountain. It was windy and cloudy.

The more I climbed, the more everything looked little. Finally, the bus on the road looked like an ant. So small. I could hide the bus with my one finger. The mountain was wearing colorful clothes here and there, but because of the drought, some trees dried up.

The top of the mountain was like a small back yard. I was a little disappointed. As soon as we arrived there we went down and took rest. After climbing, we went toward the waterfall. There were three different types of waterfall. The first waterfall was great. It was located near big rocks and the water was clear.

We walked more to see the second waterfall. There wasn't enough water there. So the waterfall looked like a little stream. I washed my hand and It was so cold like ice. My legs didn't want to move anymore so I had to drag them.

At 3 we went to the shuttle bus stop, but already lots of people were waiting for bus. We waited for 40 mins and drove for 2 hours to come back home. I was too tired to sit on my computer. There were several pictures in my phone, but they were all not good. I regret not to bring my camera which is in Busan right now.

Next time, I want to enjoy the scenery slowly than yesterday. Climbing in fall is a good way to get rid of stress from work. So I am trying to go and see the leaves everyweek.

Weekend Break

This Tuesday its election day and another holiday for me! It will also mean a change for this country. I voted for Obama because I really want America to represent a new change. I also voted for him because I feel his policies will make it better for us to live together here in America.

This weekend I cleaned up my house some more, fixed my computer a little and am thinking about going and getting a haircut. I havent gotten a haircut since I got back and want to get one before I see you so you aren't surprised.


School is going to keep me busy I have a lot of things to do this week but I am going to be happy when its all said and done! After getting my haircut I am going to go get my picture taken. I need to get some photos. I will send you one!


Honey~ I saw Peter for the first time and am happy to say he is still a good friend of mine. I am mad at my other friends a little though cause I can't believe how they are acting. Steve has a house he doesn't pay rent at all and Peter is living there and having to pay even though he is one of Steve's best friends. Steve is also so rich because his family owns a bank. I think he is so strange lately.


my house is alright. Paul can be a lot to deal with sometimes and as I told you I was surprised that I had to act like a tough guy with him once.


I hope his friend is ok cause I don't want to get angry again.

I miss you so much and think about you more than I write. Right now, its 11 in the morning and I think its usually 10 in the morning but now we are in DAYLIGHT savings time which I don't like at all.

I will write more soon right now I am going to fix my i-pod and computer.

Talk soon

XOXO

Hallow Halloween

I don't like Halloween at all. I really never have. Giving candy to kids goes against the whole moral lesson of accepting candy from strangers. How can kids learn and grow up properly if they go door to door asking for candy?

Sadly, I recall last year and how Mr. J's selfishness made me so angry. I shouldn't think so much but it makes me feel bad. Today, I was in a bad mood most of the day mainly due to my roommate. Sometimes, he is so insensitive. I wish he would learn to curb his mouth before I leave. Also, we are going to get a new roommate which isn't legal but it will save us some money and also allow Paul to have a new roommate when I leave in December. I guess he is coming in a week though so now I am going to have to put up with more problems. Paul is being very uncooperative with me about this.

What a messs uh?

Honey, last night you said that you felt bad. It pains me to hear that. I really do want to understand anything and everything. Someday we will marry and it will be the happiest day of my life... I felt bad because of the pressure you get and I wish I could help you more.

Tomorrow is November and I am so excited I think it will be a better time!

Honey the job I got is an adult teaching job which is 5 minutes away from Busan station. I think I will sign a contract in a week or so and send some papers. When you are sad I am same all the time. TOGETHER LETS WORK and we can solve everything.


more to follow soon..

Starbucks coffee shop.

Today was at the end of October and at the same time Halloween day. We didn't have any party at work, because we had party last week already. I didn't participate in there though.

I just watched Halloween party scene on TV, so I really want to enjoy the party. Skeleton costume, witches, wizards, ghosts and black cats... Scary pumpkin and thrilled music.. Everything is strange to me. Is it fun or boring? Interesting or scaring? I wonder a lot.

I got up early in the morning to see Pearl. I was a little late and we went to Starbucks together. It was good place for gloomy cloudy day. Hot coffee and warm scone made us feel better and keep warm.

Pearl lost her weight a lot since she came back from Australia. When I met her before Chuseok, she gained a lot because of sweet donuts. She had curly short hair and it made her look younger than her real age.

We talked about you, her someone who could be boy friend, but unfortunately couldn't be and everything we were interested in. After our short meeting, I went downtown to shop with my mom. We went some shops and found several coats and jackets. But they were too expensive to buy.

If I have 400$, I can buy at least 2 or 3 coats. Nowadays it's Depression time and most of people don't want to spend lots of money for their clothing or food. How do they sell such a high price coat? In addition, they insisted that coat was on sale. I think it's all bubble. Maybe Brand Power.

It rained a little bit so I had to eat something hot. I ordered dumpling soup and shared with Viki. I didn't share with new teacher. As I told you before, he is The God of Gluttony. After C class, I went into the teacher's room and he was almost finished eating bread. Viki was angry because of that, so we didn't share snack with him at all.

Mr. J bought a new coppy machine. I was surprised of him to pay a lot of money just for machine. He added this you could get oil refund like tax refund because you worked here last year. Under 30000$ for a year, we can get oil refund. It's 240$. If you apply within this month, you could be get some money.

a days hike

I have been hiking a little bit more than I have done before lately. I have also been going with my roommate which unfortunately can be annoying. He is a good person to talk to but sometimes he isn't really listening and he is judgmental. We share a lot of laughs but its not the same as it used to be. I just try to think of being with you and it makes me feel better.


Today I had 2 classes. I stayed for both of them, originally I was going to leave early to meet my roommate so he could go on a date of some sort but I stayed and got out late because the teacher wouldn't stop talking.

After getting home I went to the mall with my friend and had lunch. Later I went on a hike with my roommate.

I cooked a great dinner and watched a good movie. Its too bad its not the weekend but tomorrow it is. I hope that you got my package and I can't wait to talk to you.

Honey you are the pinacle of my life. I will write a story about that. Its november and that means I will be going back in less than a month. I hope you come here with me soon.


I love you.

Swimming for fun

Honey as you know me, one of my favorite sports is swimming. I have swum for 2 years and it's good for my health. I can improve health condition, function of heart and lung, endurance and metabolism.

To learn or try new skill is not easy. For the first time, I almost drowned and swang my arms continuously. I drank lots of dirty water at that time, felt bad, and thought of quitting swimming.

Today I learned how to dive. It was really fun. If I learn a little bit more, I think I can do this very well than anyone else. haha. I am proud of myself too much.

When we were in the pool together, It was not bad. I just wanted you to take swimming lesson and enjoy swimming more with me. You can do backcrawl so you need to learn crawl, butterfly, and breast.

Butterfly stroke is the most difficult and hard skill. You can learn this after crawl, back crawl and then breast. I tried to push myself out of the water in the pool, but It was too hard.

Soon I hope we can swim together and you can learn how to swim systematically. Then we can enjoy more than before. Let's try more and enjoy more.

Sharing and Togetherness

A give and take relationship is the most ideal one. If one person is doing all the giving and another is doing all the taking its never going to work.

One should never give out of a feeling of obligation but do so naturally. I know many people who don't understand this basic concept. I have never met Jeff but I am going to be happy when you are free from him. Miss J and Mr. J never had that concept so I always felt weird being around them. They made me miserable when it came to my experience there. At times, thats why I felt bad when we would try to do something nice.

In my opinion, its not worth the energy caring about selfish people. Jeff came and should have tried harder I am so happy he will be gone in a week or so.


OUR relationship is the most perfect one I know. We share our ideas freely and easily and we do so with no expectation of reward.


Sometimes I may sound "mushy" also known as oily but it is never meant to come out that way. I an so in love with you that when I am not working on something like homework I am always thinking of you.

I wrote you a letter today but I will try to send it tomorrow if I get the time.

You are my better half you were pretty much from the get go and since finding you I have come to realize what exactly Life is worth.
I don't want Jeff to get under your skin. I am coming to Korea hopefully as soon as December 1st but I am not sure yet. I want so much to happen when I get there and make everything better.

I will try not to worry about your health. I know you are a strong woman but naturally I care and just think about ways of making things work.


Today I just went to my class and watched some tv. I am getting some things done here and there. I have a lot to tell you soon.

Talk soon Sweetie

Today's....

Today I took a rest enough at home with mom. She set the table for me. It was delicious but I didn't digest the food well. So I had to take medicine.

When you are hungry and you can't eat food because of your digestion, it's terrible. Today I was hungry but I couldn't eat well. I felt my stomach was filled with something wrong so wanted to take out everything inside. Hunger is better than bad digestion.

After calling you, I walked a little bit. The wind was cold and chill. From tomorrow, I will wear warmer clothes then I won't be cold anymore. You don't need to worry about my health condition at all. It will be useless.

Mom made candy bar like caramel. It was sticky, sweet and yellow. "Glutinous rice jelly" is the correct word. I looked up this word right now. If you boil water and powdered malt together for a long time, it gets sticky more and more. And then put it on the flour and cut little pieces. It's clutinous rice jelly.

Um.. now let's talk about "Give and take" What is good and bad? Just giving someone without receiving? or Taking something from someone without relationship? Nowadays I am thinking about this a lot. When you were here, I didn't think about this at all.

I don't like unilaterally taking or giving. If I receive something from someone, he/she will think about reward. And If I don't give him/her anything, the relationship won't grow and be close. In addition, The more I will feel burden the more I get it.

If I give all the time without reward, I will think he/she is so rude and doesn't know social manner. I think people are the same here and there. They like receiving and also giving. Cause when I see your smile, I am happier.

HOney, I am really happy you are my better half. You know what is manner, true love, give and take, and also what is better for us.

Last week of october

Its now Tuesday and my days seem to be just one big one. I bought a book yesterday so I could finish my last report and at the end of this week I will finish my midterm. I found a job ysterday and think that even though I will only make 2.1 I will take this one. I am trying to write a lot more in my stories, letters, everything because its one of the few things that make me feel well.


I will finish this week and be a lot happier about school! Its almost November and I have a lot of things to prepare soon.

Yesterday was so nice I spent a lot of time just resting around the house and at the same time I got a lot of things done too! I am hoping that this coming weekend I can finish a lot more so I can enjoy a longer vacation.

I wont go home next week though because my family is still really busy. I will just enjoy it here in Missoula I think.


Today I am taking a small break and going to try to get my health back a little.


I hope to watch more movies soon as well. I talked to my friend Sam yesterday and he told me that Peter was no longer in Las Angeles so that should mean that Peter is somewhere in Missoula so hopefully he will give me a call soon. Its going to be interesting here soon

Thats all the major news I can think of right now. I am going to mail you a letter I hope today.

Love you a bunch

Cooking Realization

Today I cooked Spaghetti and I thought about how much I wanted to cook for you. When I was in college the first time I was too poor to make anything too special. Today I put in tomatoes, onions, meat, and seasoning. In my opinion, I think I am becoming a good cook and want so much to be back-up to you. I would cook you well when you were sick or tired and also when you needed a break at our restuarant.


Cooking may be something that I will like to do more. I thought of the ingredients as adding spice to life.


One of the things you taught me was to do things well or not at all. I am spending more time on figuring out dilema's and not rushing into anything. I am noticing a lot of changes that I am now going through as a result of going abroad. I can tell honey its well worth it if you can.


I am writing you a letter that I want to send this week as soon as possible.

Soon I will be getting ready for school and talking to you as well.


just like the simmering in the pan of my meat as I cook I am seeing just how fast time is going. I pray it goes faster because more than anything I just want November to get here. In November everyting I need to do is going to happen. I don't know why.


Babe~ Reading your stories makes me feel so much happier and thank you so much for my second best sleeping partner. haha.

I love your artwork. I have your keyholder, glasses case, bear, welcome sign, heart, and many other things that I cherish so much. I want to buy us a hutch so we can put them on display. Honey I love you so much. Thank you for making me feel so special

Oops

I already wrote one long story. But I mis clicked just one time. So all of my sentences removed. I couldn't remember what I wrote exactly. Should I write one more time? I am OTL now.

Last night my sister's family came home at 10:30 pm. We ordered some pork food at that time and went to bed at 1 am. I couldn't use my computer at all because of bad connection condition and there was no way I could let you know I couldn't use my computer.

On sunday morning, Mom and I had to go to Daegu for relative's wedding. My sister wanted to go there so we got on her car and went to Daegu together. During wedding, she, her husband and nephews went to the park to enjoy the sunlight.

After the wedding, we went shopping and I spent 300$ for my family. Her husband's birthday and elder nephew's birthday are near so I gave them presents. And also I bought jackets for my dad and my brother. They are all fashionable.

As you know me, I have a good skill about choosing clothes. I am really happy to see their happy smiles.

Oh honey, today I didn't bring my phone today. I turned off the alarm in the morning and then let it on my bed and left home without it. For the first time, I didn't know this. I really hope you didn't worry about me much. I will care more about this.

LOVE YOU SO MUCH. TALK SOON ^^

Lonely without You

Honey I finished a lot of homework and I worked really hard today. I am feeling better about where I am in school. I think i was begining to crack under too much stress.

The last couple days I think I put my foot in my mouth and made things worse than they needed to be. I spent a lot of time thinking about this today. Just ask any of my friends.


I was the happiest today when I opened your package. I love everything in there from the nice shirts, delicious cookies which I gobbled up to the nice ornaments. Honey you said it right in your letter they are cute like us. Honey I hope to put on a Christmas tree someday.


Its a tradition in my family. WE used to hang ornaments to a tree on Christmas and my family collected nice decorations.

I am happy to hear that your i-pod can play videos. Babe I want to curl myself up to you and watch one with you asap.
I am ecited that my dreams are coming more real daily.


Thank you so much for you package it has already brightened my week. Today I relaxed after putting in a 3 hour study session. It was brutal.


I am realizing more and more just how much I need you. Everything I am doing is to get back to you and make our dreams reality. Honey I know I screw up and I know I am not always thinking but I really do hope you know I am not doing this on purpose.

Video clips and I-pod

When I woke up in the morning, it rained outside. It was cold so I didn't get out of my bed. I wanted to eat something hot, stay home before I went to work. The air was fresh and chill at the same time.

It didn't pour, but rained all day. I wore warm black sweater and skirt including my black shoes. My work wasn't bad, cause I had two tests. They was only my rest time in a month. Besides, some kids didn't come at the academy to prepare their school exam. I think it's mid-term exam.

Today I succeeded to put some video clips in my I-pod. I can see movies anywhere and I will bring it with me all the time. I-pod is much better than my MP3 player. It's old fashioned and I got it from my senior friend for free. I can only listen to music. There's no function to watch a movie like I-pod or I-touch.

I think you can put some video clips in your I-pod, too. Although it's third generation, it's possible. After downloading some movies, maybe you have to use "Encoder" to change the file extension. You can put ONLY MP4 files in your I-pod. If you want to know more about this, ask me. ok?

Everyday I will watch different kinds of animations or movies. Nowadays I am interested in Japanimation(=Japan Animation) and soap drama. Watching movie in the bed is good way. I can stay warm and take a rest, too.

Sharing Peas

Sometimes I think I was born a Korean and just mis placed at birth. I have always thought differently than many or most of my peers. I have felt that way for a long time. I had a hard time fitting in with many people and when people would turn against me my mom would always say its because you are wanting to much. While I was growing up I often shared more than I should have if that makes any sense.

Its hard to explain but to me some people thought I could be too nice at times.


Your stories of hardships at work make me understand things better. I like the expression to share a pea amongst 10 people. I think that more sharing would make the world feel better ultimately.

We all need to rely on each other more. I am shocked that Jeff has no concept of sharing whatsoever. Its easy to buy lunch or a snack for people every now and then. I think thats common sense. Most people do things without looking for a reward its just mutually understood that you rub my back and I will scratch yours.


Honey one of the things that I didn't like was that everything seemed work. I couldn't be friends with Mr. Jeong because it was all work. If I didn't work for him maybe I would have enjoyed talking to him more. When I go back to Korea I want to work only 5 days because I want a full weekend to devote to you. I get more excited everyday just thinking of going back. Time is going by so fast.


our country is about to undergo a transformation. We will either show the world a new democracy with the first Black man elected president and in my opinion a new hope for world opinion or we will continue to go down the trenches with another Republican who will more than likely keep us at war.


I am hopeful about our country.


I do know that the world is full of people like Jeff. Self centered egotistical, selfish, judgmental and purposefully hurtful. I want to kill him actually. He bothers me a lot because he infringes on your privat things. I am in disbelief about that.


SHARING PEAS can be a restuarant slogan

KIM PALMERS
WE SHARE PEAS
EAT Healthy and Be HAppy

I really pray we can open good restuarant. Honey the Economy will get better, our world views will also get better and more than HOPE exists for everything.


I am excited to show you something soon!

Honey I hope that Tuesday went well. Have a good time with your brother and say hello to my future brother in law.

Maybe he can help me get a job?

I am thinking so much of you and can't wait to share more with you. Honey CRACK UP ok Always

I will write again soon!

Pleasure Seeker

This weekend is over and it went by so fast. I was able to get a little bit of my work done. My midterm is nearly complete, I got more rest and I finished most of the projects around the house that I had wanted to.
I am going to get a lot done today and tomorrow too. Classes will go fast and I think I can do the hw fast!

I am still writing a lot about work I am thinking I can find a good job maybe by the end of the week! I found an adult school in Seoul that I am thinking about now. As the adage goes I am not trying to put all my eggs in one basket. I know that I will get some job so I will just wait.

I am trying to write so much more now. I have a few friends who just wrote me who aren't doing so well. I hope that I can visit with them before I go back but they are on the East Coast of America. I really WANT to live on the Coast of America. I think it would be a lot of fun. Someday I want to buy some nice real estate but unfortunately not right now. Its hard to believe we will have a new president in a little over two weeks.

I have to go vote somewhere although I am not sure. I also have a friend who should be back in Missoula at the end of this month--Peter. I can't wait to see him.


The weather was too grey for me this weekend so I think it will get colder soon and that will mean that I have to figure out how to make the house warmer and other things like that.


Today I can go to my Phonology class and get a lot of work done there. The class is so slow and to short.


SO now I am trying to get more busy and retain my health. I want to write you many wonderful stories and find a lot of nice things to do and or to buy^^

I will write again soon

Heavy Liftin'

Today I went to the gym. I had a workout where I ran on the treadmill and lifed some weights. I am really hoping to put on the weight but so far I have to say I have gained minimal amounts.

I am going to get a membership to make the month of November go faster. I read all of your stories and I want to reply to them here...

Some people are Flaky and dishonest as well as just over all Fake people. I never want to associate myself with them. I feel that Mr. Jeong is such a person. I think he walks over people and doesn't know how to interact properly. I hope that someday we can leave him.

Jeff is a bad American. He just finished college. He though going to Korea would make him a lot of money and he probably went to appease some of his friends. He doesn't know how to show proper respect. In many ways he is the typical young American. I feel 21 year olds are too young personally to work properly. He is selfish and out for himself. He doesn't know how to interact either because he is only interested in money and also I think he got to a point where he is afraid of these changes in his life. These changes simply put are just being in Korea.

I feel that Korea and America needs to change and more so the people. Mr. J needs to change his work manner and Jeff needs to see how to talk properly to Koreans and not feed Korean people a negative stereotype of Americans. Its people like Jeff that make me want to renounce my citizenship. I don't need people like him to give my country a BAD NAME.

Thats why I am lifting.


Jeff is insecure and he will be gone soon. I will be going back to Korea FOR YOU. I want to see you and be with you so much. I hope that you leave Mr. J cause his ways are below our way of life.

I am going to give you comfortable and coziness hopefully in Busan and then in America. I assure you that You have nothing to fear.


I want to watch animation with you too! I think Animation would be a lot of fun and enjoyable for us. I will buy nice entertainment system for us someday! Among many other things ./..

There's a lot more I want to say but I will write another story for this.

i hope you slept well. Monday is here and I think its going to be better week.

LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Daily Report

Honey as you already knew this, I went to Daegu in the morning to meet Complain girl. I got on the train and there were lots of people standing there already. I listened to music reading "Alchemist".

In the book, there were lots of good expressions which I really wanted to remember forever. One of them is "Something has its own truth which we can learn from it"

What did I learn from you? Yes, I learned "True Love", "Generous", "Devotion", and "Cherish". I am loved by you so much and so happy. I hope you learned something from me, too.

We went to the restaurant to eat lunch and had Seafood spaghetti. It was so so and went shopping. I bought a black knit one-piece, a black shirt and a white blouse. They were on sale so I didn't spend much than I expected.

After coming home, my family and I went to eat dinner and I am so full now. I already wrote two stories. I wonder how can I write several stories in a row. Perhaps because of your love and You. It makes me write more and more and gives me energy.

I finished making another Teddy Bear. It's pinky, too. haha. I don't have any blue cloth. Later I want to make a huge white teddy bear for us. If we put it in the corner in the bedroom, the room will be looked warmer and cozy. We love cozy things.

Soon I will drink hot tea and realx a little and then talk to you on MSN. Talk soon.

Animation in my life

Do you like watching animation? I love it so much. It was one of my favorites and still it is. It's common for me to watch animation from Japan which is near my country and has high quality, excellent skills about Animation.

When I was young, I had liked to watch animation on TV. Most of the characters were pretty or handsome like a princess or a prince. They looked like ideal people who we couldn't think they were in real world.

Last week, I found some animations from Japan and the genre is SF/Robot. Have you ever seen the Gundam series before? I already several different types of Gundam and "Gundam00(double o)" is the latest one. If you have never seen them, I hope you would watch them soon. It's fantasy and not real, but we can practice Japanese watching them. It's good for me to relax and waste of time. ^^

I didn't draw anything after you left here. This is an excuse but there was no time to draw. I was sewing, sleeping or watching TV. Besides, I used to go swimming for my exercise and go shopping for you or myself.

Honey, soon let's see each other and enjoy watching animation. ok? You will like this so much. I know you well than yourself.

Skills of fake

Pretending someone or deceiving people is very bad. Some criminals do this very well to steal or get more money from others on bad purpose. Or some detectives disguise to chase something or someone. I have watched this on TV lots of time and thought it's very bad way. But nowadays I think I need this skill and sometimes I have to use it.

I didn't think about this at all before a new teacher came here. He's a young, dull and selfish guy. I've never met that kind of person in my life. For example, most of Koreans share food with their neighborhoods even it's very small one like a pea. This proverb expresses this very well, "Ten people share even a pea." He doesn't know the meaning of "Sharing with someone" or "Rewarding of virtue". Whenever we eat something, we used to share it with you all the time. Then next day you treated us more than we did.

I really hate him. Viki dislikes him, either. One fourth of kids don't like him and have a question why he came here. He shouldn't have came here, cause he doesn't like kids at all and isn't interested in teaching or preparing classes. Since he asked me special tea, I've not liked him and he noticed it. haha.

Today he asked me what I would do this weekend. I knew why he asked me about this. Viki and I tried to take him to Kyoungju, but we changed our minds because of his activities. If I told him that I would be free, what would he say? I wonder a little bit.

How can I kick him out? or How can I make him get in trouble? Tell me the best ways. Let's think about this seriously.

Shopping Spree

Today I bought a new computer. I want to use something that will be faster and save a lot of time. I can perform multiple tasks and accomplish a lot more. I think it will cut down on wasted time. I can't do much with my old computer now. I am happy I got new one and I can't wait to show it to you.


Honey I thought of you so much today. I like my roommate. He is a good friend but his habits are not really good for me. He wastes a lot of time playing games and doesn't really know how to socialize well with me. I have lost a lot of things with my friends and just can't wait to get back to you.


I know I say this to you a lot but I really can't say how much I love you. I hope your stomache is feeling better. Your health is so important to me. I dream of us being able to have everything beyond our wildest dreams. I want to bring you here and show you everything someday and I can't wait until I can do this.

You are my truest love and greatest gift. You keep my path straight and promising.


There isn't anything I wouldn't do to insure your safety and health. I want to go to Jewelry store with you so much^^

I am getting a lot of things done here for now. Today I set up the computer and cleaned the house a little. I am hoping to get better squared away tomorrow.

Honey I hope you had fun in Daegu. I am always here for you ALWAYS. Call me if I am not here I will come faster. LOVE YOU FOREVER NOW AND ENDLESS. YOU HAVE MY HEART.

Plowing

Someday I may actually want to plow a field but for now I am trying to plow through some homework. After this year is over I will be half way towards getting a certification program.

I am daily getting more goals and trying to get more ambitious in my undertakings.

I would like to take more care in politics. Its my hope that Pangea can someday occur. I don't like restrictions placed on foreigners in this country. Our government misjudges characters too much. They don't understand the basis of humanity.


I really pray for change. One thing I will say is that I promise and can guarantee a wonderful experience in America. Things change so fast in America and I truly believe that it is the land of the free and the Home to all who are in need of a home. America can open its doors to everyone and its my hope and belief that we still can have this world.


I am plowing in order to plant seeds. I want all of our seedlings to grow. The only thing we have to fear is fear itself. As long as I live I will not let us have fear of the unknown. I care about money, jobs, people, health, food, and many other things but not as much as I care about Love and the amount of energy I plan on investing into us.

I want you to know that all the time I think that because I want so much. I love to write you, I love to write stories and love to read your stories.

You are my heart and soul behind all that I am and do... you're my better half and I seriously am counting down the days to marrying you and starting a family with you.

dinner time

I learned in Korea that dinners are supposed to be non-serious affairs. Where light hearted conversation takes place and not something so serious.


I had a fine day today. I got homework done and figured out a lot of important things.

I went out to dinner with my roommate. MY roommate has some issues. He plays computer games all day. He doesn't work and he doesn't go to school. He has a nice personality which makes him likable and we can enjoy many things together. My roommate had a rough summer where some bad things happened to him.


Over the time we had dinner together my roommate decided to talk to me about something that was the top thing in my life. He was judging my future. I get so unnerved that i can't talk or anything. It hurts when people I like judge my situation. I defend things and tell people I am figuring things out.


I made the mistake of talking about it though. I don't want to make you sad or anything. Sometimes I can't believe the amount of stress I have had to take from my friends. From Bryant/Traci, to Aaron to all of my friends back home who consequently don't hang out with me much or at all anymore.


I personally can't wait to leave here since my friends are all gone. I just want to start a future with you. DONT be sad cause of me ever ok. You re loved so much by me.

When I go to class your my inspiration behind finishing. When I go to bed your are my first and last thought before I fall asleep. I can't truly express how much I love you but the fact is, is that I don't want you to feel sad ever.

I am trying so hard to make good future for us. You're all I think about. You are the only constant in my life right now honey. I am not wanting to appear weak or sad but as you know me the truth is that I love you and need you so much. You are the driving force of my life and i never want to let you down.


We are same. SAME SAME
When you are feeling down I am feeling down. Our happiness radiates outward honey I will never make you sad on purpose.

My Teddy Bear

My Teddy Bear is the cutest, coziest and most lovable in the world.

Wintertime makes me think of a lot of things too. I remember curling up to the fireplace to get warmer and read a book growing up. Its kind of like the president Abe Lincoln who read so much growing up in his log cabin. My dad used to talk about history a lot and my mom would cook good food growing up. My mother didn't know how to sew though or didn't do as much. She would fix our clothes though when we needed it.

your sewing is very exceptional. I think it looks like Antique. Antique is very valuable and priceless. Your sewing and quilt work make me think of so much. It makes me think of the warmth and comfort of your love as well as its physical or literal emphasis.

I am surrounded by your works. Your key holder, glasses case, heart pillow, owl family. Honey I cherish this so much and it makes me want to put it in glass casing someday. What we got is so special and I love making this for us.


Honey every time I come home I try to clean up my closet and try to move out so if I have enough money I can settle permanently outside of home. My brother lives at home and he doesn't like it so much he doesn't really do much I think because he is mainly working. I like to travel more and more. I treasure our things so much because it solidifies my situation.

You are my roots behind all the things I am branching out in doing.


I have a cold still but its getting better. I am trying to keep so busy. Today I looked at a computer I will buy it soon!

Honey I am going to write more and more and hopefully they are good stories or better when I am not so sick. Your stories give me good comfort and make me so happy to read that I wait as long as possible to read them.

Honey~~ YOU can display everything in our home and also we can sell or do anything you want I know this is possible. I write whatever is on my mind and I hope it doesn't surprise you.


I am going to find good job for Korea I am a little worried about it cause I don't want to go through drama with another boss or kids I just want to enjoy you and Korea again. Its mid week and I think I will have good answer soon!

I can't wait to talk to you honey I love you so much

Teddy Roosevelt was the name of the president and teddy bears are named after him because of all the Wildlife Protection he contributed. He was a good president

Teddy Bear

Finally I made my pinky teddy bear today. It has long arms and legs like you. And also it's thin and cute. Making somethings with my hands makes me so happy. I can forget bad things and focus on that work. Sometimes my parents worry about sewing cause I can lose my eyesight.

I have made my teddy bear for a week. I could finish this earlier than a week, but I was lazy nowadays and also caught a cold like you. I am a little better than you though.

The word "Teddy Bear" comes from one of the presidents in your conutry. I can't remember well, I had read about this before. Three years ago, I used to make little dolls like teddy bear or baby products. It was one of my favorites, but I've not been interested in bears for 2 years. I fell in love with quilt works.

Now the winter time is coming. It leads me to make practical things like coaster. For the first time, I thought I had to make a big teddy bear but it's hard to carry all the time with you and then you can't see it more often than tiny one. Honey, I used the pattern for Joint Bear, so you can move its arms and legs. If you look at it, you would love it. It looks cute and lovely like me. haha.

Soon I will make more dolls and make a family like our owl families. So someday I really want to display all my works somewhere. If I can't show off my works, I will make display table in my house.

I love you honey. Soon I will send my pinky to you. I can't wait to send it.

Clark Fork River

Today I walked downtown which wasn't the best idea since I am still not completely well. I am so tired now and think I should just go to bed soon. I will go to bed early tonight though.

I went to a Coffee Tea Shop Da Bong??? to look at all the assorted drinks. Honey here they have everything from all sorts of countries. Its on my list to take you someday. I really want to show you these things soon.

I stared at the clark fork river a lot today. The river just flows down its path which eventually will wash out into the Pacific Ocean. It was calming and relaxing for me. It was the only time I have felt peaceful in awhile.

I want to get out more and go on walks all by myself but I will have to wait until my cold gets better and my homework gets done.

I am trying to get the paperwork for Korea as fast as possible but its so slow. I hope that this week will get easier cause I don't feel well right now. I have loads of homework. I want to get as much as I can done so I can just rest more.


I talk about this all the time because its mostly what I am. I am a ball of love and being immersed in nature today made me feel so much more attached to you. My love for you will continue to grow and nothing will ever change that.

Like the water flow on the Clark fork I am going back to you. All waters converge and wash out into the deep ocean. The ocean and my love are same. The river is my path to your heart where I never want to leave. I am so happy to have met you and be with you all the time.

I want to write more but I will rest for now. Talk soon Love!

Colombus Day

Today was Columbus Day. I didn't even know that. Columbus was the man who didn't even set foot in this country but our country decided to honor him since he is the one that wanted to find it.
I only knew this because I couldn't get my Criminal Background Check and I couldn't get my money transferred today. I have to wait until tomorrow. Its not that big of a deal now since I am pretty much down to my last 40 dollars but after tomorrow I will have another 2000 to play with. I am trying not to spend at all cause I want us to have that money for our wedding, house, bed, etc. I want to move you to a castle wherever.
Today I wrote 3 stories. I want to write more but I am thinking I will have to wait until tomorrow. This week is going to be painful I think. My homework is due tomorrow and Wednesday and I know I will get more. I hope that it passes quickly.


Job opportunities are coming in but I am not sure where to go. I will try to go to one in Busan though. I want to go there and be with you so much.

School is alright I think. I want to return to school again but not until after I have made more money and explored better options. I want to ride a bike around with you too.

Anyways Today was Columbus day~ It was a bad holiday cause there was school but no banks, no courthouse and nothing important that really went on.

Its over now and that's one day closer to getting back to you.

I wrote so much today haha

Talk to you soon

PRECIOUS TREASURES WORTH CHERISHING

All these proverbs are coming from my book I am reading. I am just writing some of my personal antidotes to support the saying.

Education, Relationships, and Knowledge from history is worth much more than anything else in this world. This proverb makes so much sense to me and is what I truly feel. The most precious treasure I have unearthed has been you.

You opened my eyes to health, good foods, and you put meaning in the expression

"There is more than just meets the eye"
I thought very poorly of myself when I was in Korea for the first few months. I could partly understand Jeff's reactions to things. Partly.
I can see him as a scared foreigner without understanding or desiring to learn how to find a solution to his problem. Enough about him though.


Honey nothing I get would ever make our treasure go away. You have opened my eyes to a world full of potential.
The world may be in a state of chaos but I am content because I have unearthed what originally was hidden to me and found more meaning and more understanding in everything as a result.

Honey Drinking Tea is something I want to do with you more especially when we are in our older age. Tea symbolizes life to me I am not entirely sure why but I feel that there is something deeply connected to the concoction of brewing up some tea. I feel better after tea than when I drink coffee instead.

Honey we are learning so much and the more we write the more we learn. This blog is becoming something I cherish so much.
Honey even if I don't express it well you make me happiest and you make me feel better. If I am sad or mad its because of my plight I don't like here. I can overcome of course.

Our love will continue to grow... I will write another story soon:)

Never forget you are the most cherished treasure I have and most precious dearly to me.

THE LOSS OF ONE HAIR FROM NINE OXEN

Honey,
I am reading a Proverb book by the Chinese Author Adeline Yen Mah. She is one of my favorite Authors and I will write a story around a proverb each day. The same ones I am reading about. I have read four so I am a little behind. I am interested in reading history books and also learning as much as I can right now about everything I could possible ascertain.

THE LOSS OF ONE HAIR FROM NINE OXEN
Adeline wrote about a Chinese Writer who had to overcome disgrace and shame he had wrought on the emperor and live in humiliation simply because he had made a promise to finish a written work. This work is called the Shiji which is a focal piece of Chinese Culture. Its simply a historical reference covering 2000 years in the Yangtze River area.

In Adeline's personal life she had to overcome personal obstacles with her maligned and defunct family and also pursue a career in medicine and writing. She overcame and was very successful.

Perseverance and essentially a FIGHTING attitude will make us attain everything we all put our minds to. This proverb is beneficial in my opinion for people believing that they have something bad that no matter what they can overcome this frenzy and reach a level of posterity. In the case of Ancient Chinese history the man overcame [castration] in order to serve the masses of people following him in preceding generations.

Posterity or also just for one's own sake. I know that I want to be a writer, study hard, and follow my heart, dreams and goals out to the fullest without interruption or fear of failure.

This proverb says to not fear the future and just embrace whatever comes and to not let anything swivel your mind.

I want to learn more Proverbial sayings in the passages that follow.

Next one...

Only for you

I know how much you are tired and don't want to go to school today. But with only your ration you do your work I know this very well.

So writing story for you is making you happy and smile. I can't call you all the time and I can't show my mind well on the phone. But If I write a story for you, I can do everything.

For the first time Showing my mind was strange and weird for me, but you led me to do this very well. Nowadays this is not problem at all for me. I can express my feeling and emotion what I want to say and also I can read your stories without problem.

Sometimes I make mistakes, but you just cheer me up and encourage me. I am still a little shame to speak English on the phone on the bus or somewhere. Most of people look at me and they try to hear what I am saying.

Today my number 13 bus had a car accident. It stands at the bus stop and the car in front of bus suddenly backed up, so it crashed the bus. It wasn't a big accident but I was a little surprised. It reminded me to have a car accident when I was young.

Honey I am really sorry about this. But I didn't want you to worry about this. It's morning time and I really hope you have a good day there without any worriment.

After work, I had good dinner and sewed a little bit. This is all for you. If I am healthy, you will be happy and try to be healthy yourself. As you already knew this, I am making our teddy bear and it's pink. ^^ My favorite color. I can't wait to show mine to you.

Don't forget how much I love you and care of you all the time. Only for you I will try more and work harder.

A GIRL LIKE YOU

As I turned out the lights and crawled into my bed I thought of you as I always do. When I go to bed I think of the day and how I spent it and hope that when I wake up the sun will be shining and inviting me to a wonderful new day. Reading your emails and stories make that possible for me.

A girl like you is so rare to find in today's world.
I feel that you and I are few people in today's world
that have something truly special. Our love for each other
is a gift.


A girl like you came to me straight out of my dreams. When I wanted consoling you are there.

To me you have eloquence and style. You have a genuine caring and compassionate nature about you. You are all the attributes I could ever want in someone else as my better half.


You have fought through difficulties and paved a road that could serve as a model for many people. A Girl Like You made me realize my dreams. Because of you I can carry on so easily.

As I watch my roommate escape into his video games Final Fantasy and Warcraft I think how happy I am that my Fantasy world is no longer a Fantasy but a growing realization of how our dreams are slowly coming true.

My head is throbbing and I am hoping its a sign that I am getting better. I am not looking forward to school tomorrow. I have so much things to do this week but I think it will go wonderful. I am going to rest and plan as well as possible. Thanks to A Girl like you I know its possible.


Honey you are the girl straight our of my dreams. Building a Future with you one step at a time is making me so happy. Don't be sad or feel lonely. Together we can make things happen. I love you so much and I will talk to you more soon!

Always :)

Drinking Special Tea

Fragnant, odor, aroma, perfume, scent and so on. There are lots of expression about Smell. These smell makes people happy, sad, angry, amd comfortable.

When I drank tea named "English breakfast", its smell was so so. It was like dry little bark and brown leaves. I thought that the color of tea is green. I've never thought about other colors like brown and dark khaki. There were no tea trees near my hometown, But lots of pine trees instead. Their smell was bitterish and fresh like mint.

Later I knew that we can make milk tea with "English breakfast tea" and then I loved it so much. In fact, You and I made Milk tea several times and enjoyed a lot. It was warm, sweet and smooth. I hope we can get tea time soon.

It was my first time to drink special tea like Chinese quince when I was 12. One of my neighbor treated me yellow tea with fresh plum. Before they came to my hometown, I had never experienced drinking tea. Coffee was common but it was a little expensive at that time. So when important visitors come home, my mother used to treat it to them.

As I told you before, I was accustomed to smell grass, pine trees, wild flowers and farms. If I went to farm with lots of pear tress, I could smell sweet and fragnant. Whenever I was sick, my mom boiled water and then some pears warmed up in a double boiler. That is kind of the traditional tea.

Adults are weird. If they think their son or daughter become adult, they give them coffee or alcohol. I can't remember when my parents gave me tea or alcohol and I drank it. But I'm pretty sure now I really like to drink tea so much and my parents do, too.

Today I drank Peach and Passion Fruit tea with my father. Its smell was so sweet and the color was like wine. The taste was so so though. The fragnance of tea spread from the cup in the air and finally the livingroom was filled with sweet smell.

Honey everything is happiness for me. Because whatever I do, it makes me think of my childhood and YOU. Even drinking tea is special. I imagine how much you take care of me, love me, and want to talk to me. ^^

In the Same Boat

Honey every day I look forward to talking to you and also reading your stories. You have wonderful writing skills and its my favorite pleasure to read your thoughts.

Your Recent story "Someone who I need" made me feel really happy. I feel closer to you each day.


Honey right now I am feeling slightly better from my cold. I bought some nasal spray and I think its helping a little.

Our relationship is the most important thing to me in my life and thats why your letters, stories, and everything you say makes me feel so wonderful and even if I am struggling with sickness or loneliness I can carry on.


Today I just relaxed, it was a fast Saturday. I didn't do much. I put up a towel rack in my house. Honey I can't wait to make repairs to our house.

I finished most of my homework and just watched a lot of tv.


You're all that I need and I will write more soon right now I am just going to relax and go to bed early I think. I hope you have a wonderful day its Sunday and I am feeling November is coming very soon^^

Someone who I need

When I needed someone
You came and became my friend.

When I was sick
You bought medicine for me.

When I had to lean someone
You made me lean your shoulder.

When I had problem
You solved it easily.

Someone who I give my quilt work,
Someone who I take care of,
Someone who I devote,
Someone who I show my real mine,
Someone who I share everything of mine,
Someone who I live together forever,
Someone who I treat well,
Someone who I bake bread,
Someone who I cook during my whole life,
Someone who I love more than my family,

is


YOU

It's you, yeah YOU

My better half,
My future husband,
My apple,
My pea in a pod,
My honest darling,

Nick Palmer.

You are my everything.

Leaves trembling down from trees

Honey it's fall when the wind blows leaves off the trees and birds in a V flys south area to be warm. When I got up in the morning, I shivered a little bit because of cold air. Last week the air was fresh, but not anymore. I even blew my frozen hands.

My father didn't go to work today. We took care of flowers all morning. Some flowers suffered from tiny bugs, so my father cut some of them and then put good soil on the pots. Within two weeks, I can see the beautiful flowers including sweet sultan, yellow chrysanthemum and white mum.

They are like a little baby, so someone has to trim, give some water and good soil, and exterminate vermin once two days. They are all my father's precious things. During whole summer, they just grew and got enough leaves. And they are trying to be in full bloom now.

I used to take pictures of them and maybe I will take pictures them again. My brother brought my camera last week, so I can't do it now. If he comes back, I will take pics and then go hiking Gem-Oh mountatin again. The scenery and view were so beautiful and great.

I could see colorful leaves here and there the sky was clear. The sun was shining and the breeze was cooling my sweat. Sometimes You and I sat on the rocks and took rest. Although we didn't go on top of the mountain, it was good experience.

There was a wedding ceremoney near the mountain. While we drove there, I could see some leaves trembling and tumbling down. Some trees already wore yellow coat and red coat. Another trees were changing their coat in brown.

Honey, We called the fall, "high sky and plump horses". As you know this, when you look at the sky, the sky is so high and clear and horses are growing stout for cold and long winter like people. So you have to take care of yourself well than Spring and Summer. It's easy season for you to catch a cold and get sick, too. Please know how much I care about your health and feeling all the time. If you are sick, I am sick, too. Eat good and healthy food and drink hot tea more often. Then you can enjoy the fall without sickness.

Sleepwalking

Maybe because its the change of weather but I am going through my annual period of sickness. I am going to be sick for 3-5 days I think. I didn't enjoy this week going to class especially now that I feel so behind.


Honey I got a lot of hw done today but I think I will be busy all weekend especially since I need to sleep a lot more.


I am trying to fix up my house and prepare for a bad month of weather. This month is nearly half over. Honey you will be paid on Monday! I am so excited for you. I wish I could get pay.


Things are going well though. I applied for a job today I hope I get it but who knows. I love you so much and you make me so happy ....your my inspiration to get me through this rough month. I think October is the worst one. November will be easy cause I will be nearly done by the time November comes.

I am so happy right now though because of you. I hope you are doing well.


i will get off my sleepwalking stage as soon as my head clears itself.

I have a few easy days now!

Talk soon

Homework Extravaganza

Today was a day of homework. I finished a lot of assignments that are due this week. I had to spend a lot of extra time at the school to in order to get everything done. I was not wanting to spend so much time at the library or learning from a friend of mine but I had to take some extra time since I am not doing to well in school at the moment.


Tomorrow I will actually be caught up so I am excited for that. The weather is getting cold and I fear its going to be miserable here soon. I am riding a bike and I wish I had a better way to get to the school cause its not going to be fun if its too cold. I am wearing my coat from Korea and its quite warm for the time being.

I am happy cause I got a lot of things done. I wrote a few job opportunities, finished my homework and am slowly preparing for better things.

My roommate is out playing video games and he will do this until he goes to bed around 2 or 3 am. I am happy its Thursday for you cause I always liked Thursdays best.

Time goes by so fast and I am looking forward to the end of the semester. Its coming up fast I think.

I feel a little too drowsy right now and I am debating whether or not to go to bed soon.

Today I was able to have a nice lunch with a friend of mine and also see a few other friends that I hadn't seen in awhile. I am joking around a lot and love it when people laugh at what I say although I don't really talk all that much.


So it looks like this weekend I can hopefully rest a little more. I hope the weather stay well for at least another 2 weeks but I doubt it.


I am slowly starting to prepare for winter and soon I can hibernate with you I can't wait I am so excited just thinking. You are always something well to hold onto.


Honey I would never lie to you. I am not that type of guy. I don't keep any secrets from you ever. I always feel like I have the best girlfriend in the world. I know this fact is true.


Talk to you soon my lovely soul mate. My hearts Soul yearns for Seoul not anymore but always the case Simply YOU.

Hidden Treasures

Today was so busy...
I had two classes and had some problems.

I went to Food For Thought twice today because I had to meet a grad student in order to get help with my Syntax homework. I don't like Syntax its not fun. I can't wait to be done with all of my classes they aren't fun.

Today in class I told a story about Korea and the class loved the story they kept asking me to tell more. I love being the center of attention sometimes. When I talk its rarely so people in the class like to hear me its funny.


After my meeting I went to my home and did some homework. I also tried to get more of my homework done for all of this week.

I sold some books at the Book Exchange. They gave me 2.80 for my hardback copy and they gave me 10.50 in credit exchange. So I can go buy a few books for up to 10 dollars.


I want to save a lot of money so if I need school supplies or something I can get them there.

I also went grocery shopping and bought a lot of things. I will make many wonderful things for us and hopefully send you something too:)

Surprise.


I read your letters you wrote me before I left it made me sad a little but also happy. I looked at the pictures of us a lot too.


I also found some important treasures in my pirate chest from home. I have some old coins like a Silver Dollar from 1920 its probably worth 50 dollars or something I am not entirely sure. I also have some 50 cent pieces (o-bag-wan) and some important papers and things. If I go back home I can get some stamps that are valuable, and other things. I want to save them for us and put them to good use later on.


I was a smart kid and collected some nice things for our future. As I told you I knew that I would meet you before I knew I would go to Korea^^

honey tomorrow I am going to do many things again. I hope you are feeling better. You will get a package today or tomorrow or Friday I am 99% sure.

Feel better ok. I love you so much.... My treasure was always hidden but I found you that's the best and only treasure I need.


I am going to work harder now. Your news about lame Jeff didn't surprise me. I thought he would be gone by Halloween. What a loser I can't believe he couldn't prepare better. Better things are to come.

I can't wait to see you^^

Goosebumps

Today was officially the start of the work week. I went to school. My roommate slept.

He is moving in the house quite fast. The living room is already looking more like a home. I feel like I am holding up space because this is just a temporary place for me. I am trying to get things squared away one thing at a time and tomorrow I will have to study harder I think.


I finished my homework today. I printed a resume that I should drop off somewhere. I have a place in mind actually. ^__^

Today I went to a department store to renew my contacts they didn't accept it right away but I found a way. I will get new contacts soon maybe next month or something because I want to prepare myself for another year. I would have to get a new prescription or something.. I don't want to do that yet.


I am going to sell some books too soon. I want to make more money anyway I am so I am going to go through all of my personal things soon and start anew.

honey you gave me goosebumps today^^
I was so happy. Goosebumps are something you usually get when you are cold. They are on your arm but for me its excitement. My love glows when I think of you. You make me so happy and cause of you I will always do my best. I am trying to figure out a lot of things right now so I can accomplish all of our dreams.


I love you babe.


I hope you have a good week and feel better soon. I will go to bed soon

Talk to you very soon!

Hearing your voice

Honey I couldn't use the computer at all. I woke up with the thought of talking to you and writing a story for you. I wish I could hear your voice again. It goes everyhwere with me. I am always with you or you are always with me with everything I do. I told Paul last night that he had better stop messing around when it comes to you. I was mad when he was making noises when I was talking to you.


Honey you are it. All I want is to be with you and do the things we love together for all times sake. I go to school with the hope of figuring out something major so I can make it better for us.


My love for you is infinite and somedays its all that keeps me going. I hope that this week goes well for you I am slowly figuring things out.

My house looks better. I have a tv, hopefully better internet soon, and more things to do now. I have to find more hobbies to or else my roommate will eventually drive me nuts.

He stayed up too long last night and kept me up so now I am a little tired.


Today after class I will go to the bookstore and try to sell some books for my friend, sell my books and hopefully find some nice things to buy.

I will also drop off an application to a restuarant and eat some lunch. I should also get more money into my checking and maybe get my money from Paul too.

Honey~ If you need anything just ask me ok. Seriously honey Call me more often. I would call you to. I want to talk to you Anytime. Anywhere. ...I can't wait until less than 365 for one of the happiest days of our lies. As I told you I am over the moon for you and would do anything for you and stop at nothing. Love Always