Tomorrow is a Holiday. Its something I hardly thought of and relatively unimportant. Its called Labor day the first Monday of the month of September. Its too bad its the first day. This simply means there is no work.
I have moved in some furniture and hooked up internet. I also got heat and electricity. It looks like a home except that its just me here.
Today I was with a friend for too long. We had a good time but he doesn't understand social situations very well. My friend isn't someone I want to hang out with much just because he is a bad influence. He would conflict with our values. I want to do everything I can in order to just have our family and ask for your hand nothing else matters to me except for finding a way to make us happy. Its really important to me and I will try harder not to get lonesome and sad about this.
you know my mind.
So after that I had dinner with some Japanese again at the Food Zoo. I really want to hang out with them more. I like learning about Asian values and trying to make things more possible than already are.
I am sitting in my apartment now its Sunday night and I am getting tired even though its only ten. September is almost here.
I can't wait.
Love you so much.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Quest Digging
So I have completed my first week back in school. I went to all of my classes and think I will have alot of work to do this semester. I am not looking forward to this prospect actually. I am still in the process of moving into my house and this weekend will be a good way to relax since its labor day on the first of September.
In America we have this day reserved for no work. Its a day to awknowledge work and so its a day to rest!
I will try to move more into my house and I can't wait for September I think it will be a wonderful month. I have lots of things to do this week its kind of scary. I should be able to get internet though soon!
I met a guy today. This guy is 57 years old and a very nice man. He has had some interesting stories and he gave me some books for my class. I owe him a lot he really has taken an iterest in my life. he wanted to hear all about my life in Korea because I shared a class with him. His books will save me at least 80 dollars^^
I am trying to learn a lot from him because he has a lot of valuable knowledge and so I would like to spend a few times this semester just having some nice conversations with him.
I am going to be really busy this week trying to get some work done. I don't enjoy cramming but thats the way its looking.
I am on a mission a Quest to dig for richer and better things. I will write more about these things but the biggest thing I want to mention right now is that Life is meant to be Joyful and Happy and everything I do and everywhere I go I want to see this happen. In my current state of affairs with my life and my situation I want to make situations better.
I got the richest treasure in the world and more than anything I want to make it work^^
I will expand on this more but I need to write a few emails and do some more research hope you slept well...Dreaming of you and September ^^
In America we have this day reserved for no work. Its a day to awknowledge work and so its a day to rest!
I will try to move more into my house and I can't wait for September I think it will be a wonderful month. I have lots of things to do this week its kind of scary. I should be able to get internet though soon!
I met a guy today. This guy is 57 years old and a very nice man. He has had some interesting stories and he gave me some books for my class. I owe him a lot he really has taken an iterest in my life. he wanted to hear all about my life in Korea because I shared a class with him. His books will save me at least 80 dollars^^
I am trying to learn a lot from him because he has a lot of valuable knowledge and so I would like to spend a few times this semester just having some nice conversations with him.
I am going to be really busy this week trying to get some work done. I don't enjoy cramming but thats the way its looking.
I am on a mission a Quest to dig for richer and better things. I will write more about these things but the biggest thing I want to mention right now is that Life is meant to be Joyful and Happy and everything I do and everywhere I go I want to see this happen. In my current state of affairs with my life and my situation I want to make situations better.
I got the richest treasure in the world and more than anything I want to make it work^^
I will expand on this more but I need to write a few emails and do some more research hope you slept well...Dreaming of you and September ^^
At night
It's cool here. Now the wind is blowing and some crikets are chirping. Their singing means that we have fall and soon we will cold day at night. When I was young, I heard the frogs' crying in mid-summer. I thought how most frogs could cry or sing songs all day and night. They seemed not to need sleep or rest. Now the crikets are same. They are singing with regular intervals.
Today I found a small mosquito at my father's garden which is so small, but has lots of mums, grapevine, peachy tree,several types of cactus, unnamed lots of flowers. This summer, I rarely had mosquitos' attack, but other bugs. As time goes by and the weather is getting cooler, they disappeared. Most of bugs like me too much, so I don't like bugs, insects and reptiles at all. Because some of them are so disgusting. Why I refer this mosquito is that it bit me when I washed clothes. I felt itchy and scratched, so my skin is bloated.
I cooked fried eggplant, steamed egg, noodles with black sause like ramyeon which we had chinese restaurant. My father loved my cooking and we ate a lot. If I tap my stomach, I can even hear the sound of drum. Haha.
My work was so so. Mr.J said to me polite about Saturday work. I knew it wasn't his real mind. It was just cheat. I was tired of hearing and seeing his show. When I met him, I only noded my head. Kids were bad except Chansuk, Ann and Jane. They are smart but I want they to show more passion about studying and learning foreign language.
Night is dark and darker. It makes people think and dream about something. I like silent night without any interruption. Tonight I am still dreaming of us and meeting you soon.
Today I found a small mosquito at my father's garden which is so small, but has lots of mums, grapevine, peachy tree,several types of cactus, unnamed lots of flowers. This summer, I rarely had mosquitos' attack, but other bugs. As time goes by and the weather is getting cooler, they disappeared. Most of bugs like me too much, so I don't like bugs, insects and reptiles at all. Because some of them are so disgusting. Why I refer this mosquito is that it bit me when I washed clothes. I felt itchy and scratched, so my skin is bloated.
I cooked fried eggplant, steamed egg, noodles with black sause like ramyeon which we had chinese restaurant. My father loved my cooking and we ate a lot. If I tap my stomach, I can even hear the sound of drum. Haha.
My work was so so. Mr.J said to me polite about Saturday work. I knew it wasn't his real mind. It was just cheat. I was tired of hearing and seeing his show. When I met him, I only noded my head. Kids were bad except Chansuk, Ann and Jane. They are smart but I want they to show more passion about studying and learning foreign language.
Night is dark and darker. It makes people think and dream about something. I like silent night without any interruption. Tonight I am still dreaming of us and meeting you soon.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Beyond the words
Today I woke up so ealry and then I fell asleep again. I dreamt of you and wanted to stay with you a little bit more. I heard the vibration of my phone. It was you. I was so happy to hear your voice. It always makes me comfortable and happy. I think you know what I am saying. Although I call you, but I don't say anything to you, you will understand my mind. When I think of you, my heart beat is getting faster and my head starts to think about us. Sometimes we are like old couples who have lived for 40 years already.
I left home almost 11. Cause there were lots of thing to do. washing the dishes, clothes, cleaning your key holder and sewing something for you. It's still secret though. Missing my own thing made me nervous. After swimming, when I took a shower, my necklace was broken. So golden pendant dropped on the shower booth. I didn't notice that I lost it until I dried my hair. I thought it's an evil omen. I was worried about you. Thanks to god, I found them all and I won't wear it at all.
Anyway, as I told you yesterday, I made my own lunchbox. Today's menu was fried kimchi-tuna rice. That is one of my favorites and good food to make people healthy. Especially you. haha. I had fresh green apple too. Two days ago, I brought it at work and shared with Viki. And also we had cool ice black coffee and cookies. Don't you envy us? I finished writing students' report cards except 7 kids who don't want to follow my instruction and have their own opinions.
Before we left work place, Mr.J came to us and started to explain his lots of homework. I didn't want to hear his excuses at all. But there was no way to run away or avoid it. He is so stubborn and high and mighty. Finally, Even Molly came to me and started about her homework, although her homework was the least of all kids. That's only 9 times. I'm pretty sure if Mr.J keeps his own way without any adjustment, the academy will disappear soon.
At home, I had ramyeon and rice. It was good, but my condition was bad. I was so starving and my stomachache was almost empty. Because of spicy I felt hurt my stomach, soon I have to go to bathroom. Just for a moment, I should not eat spicy and hot food at all.
I thought of you a lot except work time. There's no room to think because of kids. They are little devils. It's true. They have masks to avoid their nature. The more I teach many classes, the more I could understand you a lot. How much you are treated by kids, How may times you should just tolerate that situations and How long you try to fix several problems.
I can't say words how much I understand and love you. We don't need to say to each other about our mind or thinking. I know your mind and think you will know my mind too. It's not acquired thing. We are better half to each other. That's why we know this very well. The God admits our relationship and bless us.
I left home almost 11. Cause there were lots of thing to do. washing the dishes, clothes, cleaning your key holder and sewing something for you. It's still secret though. Missing my own thing made me nervous. After swimming, when I took a shower, my necklace was broken. So golden pendant dropped on the shower booth. I didn't notice that I lost it until I dried my hair. I thought it's an evil omen. I was worried about you. Thanks to god, I found them all and I won't wear it at all.
Anyway, as I told you yesterday, I made my own lunchbox. Today's menu was fried kimchi-tuna rice. That is one of my favorites and good food to make people healthy. Especially you. haha. I had fresh green apple too. Two days ago, I brought it at work and shared with Viki. And also we had cool ice black coffee and cookies. Don't you envy us? I finished writing students' report cards except 7 kids who don't want to follow my instruction and have their own opinions.
Before we left work place, Mr.J came to us and started to explain his lots of homework. I didn't want to hear his excuses at all. But there was no way to run away or avoid it. He is so stubborn and high and mighty. Finally, Even Molly came to me and started about her homework, although her homework was the least of all kids. That's only 9 times. I'm pretty sure if Mr.J keeps his own way without any adjustment, the academy will disappear soon.
At home, I had ramyeon and rice. It was good, but my condition was bad. I was so starving and my stomachache was almost empty. Because of spicy I felt hurt my stomach, soon I have to go to bathroom. Just for a moment, I should not eat spicy and hot food at all.
I thought of you a lot except work time. There's no room to think because of kids. They are little devils. It's true. They have masks to avoid their nature. The more I teach many classes, the more I could understand you a lot. How much you are treated by kids, How may times you should just tolerate that situations and How long you try to fix several problems.
I can't say words how much I understand and love you. We don't need to say to each other about our mind or thinking. I know your mind and think you will know my mind too. It's not acquired thing. We are better half to each other. That's why we know this very well. The God admits our relationship and bless us.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Fighting Loneliness
In 2 days I will be able to stop going to the library at night^^ I want to stay at home and be able to surf the internet freely without having to go see freshman at the school and wait for a computer.
I feel so horrible sitting in my apartment alone again. I keep thinking to myself that there is something I should be doing. It has unfortunately given me a headache. I am waiting for my friend to call me but he doesnt seem to care anymore. Since getting back I met him once and it was by chance.
I realize I am all alone really and the best thing to do is just to get homework done and look for a new job to save us money. I am fighting cause I don't ever want to stop and give up.
I know that this is going to be well and ultimately exciting someday. Right now I am trying to save money and not buy a lot of things. Its almost September. September is my month to actually enjoy. The weather is perfect here and I can focus on my studies without interuption. Its amazing how 3 years ago I was all about playing and wanting to not study all the time but now I am liking homework cause it keeps me busy.
I want to go to the gym too soon. I hope I can so I can get more muscles for you^^
I am so happy right now though because I couldn't ask for a better future wife and for the first time in my life I know what I want^^
i will start doing more hobbies and try to get a fresher outlook too. Its hard for me to adjust still because I have been gone for a long time.
I dream of making a better future with you as soon as possible. I also think that I don't care about here right now either. I am not undergrad student but I am not a grad student either. I am just here. I am looking for opportunities and thinking of you all the time. I am going to go home now so I can get your phone call soon
Write more soon!
I love your stories sweetie! It makes me happy to get up in the morning to find your emails/story for me^^ I love all you do for me and more than that I LOVE you.
I feel so horrible sitting in my apartment alone again. I keep thinking to myself that there is something I should be doing. It has unfortunately given me a headache. I am waiting for my friend to call me but he doesnt seem to care anymore. Since getting back I met him once and it was by chance.
I realize I am all alone really and the best thing to do is just to get homework done and look for a new job to save us money. I am fighting cause I don't ever want to stop and give up.
I know that this is going to be well and ultimately exciting someday. Right now I am trying to save money and not buy a lot of things. Its almost September. September is my month to actually enjoy. The weather is perfect here and I can focus on my studies without interuption. Its amazing how 3 years ago I was all about playing and wanting to not study all the time but now I am liking homework cause it keeps me busy.
I want to go to the gym too soon. I hope I can so I can get more muscles for you^^
I am so happy right now though because I couldn't ask for a better future wife and for the first time in my life I know what I want^^
i will start doing more hobbies and try to get a fresher outlook too. Its hard for me to adjust still because I have been gone for a long time.
I dream of making a better future with you as soon as possible. I also think that I don't care about here right now either. I am not undergrad student but I am not a grad student either. I am just here. I am looking for opportunities and thinking of you all the time. I am going to go home now so I can get your phone call soon
Write more soon!
I love your stories sweetie! It makes me happy to get up in the morning to find your emails/story for me^^ I love all you do for me and more than that I LOVE you.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Knitting my life
That's work, sewing and thinking. Although work at the academy is so bad, I can't help including it in my life. Everyday I do my work and am afftected by it, in spite of I don't want it at all. Today I taught 7 classes and my legs hurt so much. One of the bad things in the morning is to go to work. I don't want to work. I need rest more. But at the same time I need to earn money for our future. As I told you, I don't want to live poorly. And also I don't want you to work so much. I want to help you more, and be your helper.
Sewing is my life nowadays. If I don't have this hobby, how can I endure every moment and hour? When I'm sewing, I don't think about anything. I just focus on my work without interruption. It helps me not to think so much and look down. Whenever I make something for you, I just feel happy to show my work to you soon. I can imagine smiling your face looking at my works.
Thinking is my friend and enemy. You know why I say like this. I don't want to refer about this at all. I am still not good and I still feel empty because of your leaving.
Today Viki and I talked about level up students. There are no kids who can level up except two or three kids. D classes students are dropping and we have to make kids level up to fill out the empty. If we lose the kids (especially D classes), we can't keep the academy well. It will be collapsed soon.
Mr. Jeong yelled at us yesterday because of homework. He thought that we have to give more homework to kids. As you know the situation, the more he gives lots of homework to kids, the more they complains about that in my and Viki's classes. He is making the situation worse. Finally, Alexa told her mom about this, she may quit soon. She is not my favorite, but I don't want to lose my kids like this.
I think I talked about work so much. Sorry. Nowadays I'm surrounded by work, work, and work. I am still translating my brother's work at home, and It will finish it before this sunday. I don't know this work makes me study more or not. But I'm pretty sure I can read the paragraphes faster than before.
And also I am still studying the vocabularies and listening, too. It's still hard for me though. I want to see your school more, ride your bike, go to Food for Thoughts, meet your old friends, greet to your parents and enjoy my future with you.
Sewing is my life nowadays. If I don't have this hobby, how can I endure every moment and hour? When I'm sewing, I don't think about anything. I just focus on my work without interruption. It helps me not to think so much and look down. Whenever I make something for you, I just feel happy to show my work to you soon. I can imagine smiling your face looking at my works.
Thinking is my friend and enemy. You know why I say like this. I don't want to refer about this at all. I am still not good and I still feel empty because of your leaving.
Today Viki and I talked about level up students. There are no kids who can level up except two or three kids. D classes students are dropping and we have to make kids level up to fill out the empty. If we lose the kids (especially D classes), we can't keep the academy well. It will be collapsed soon.
Mr. Jeong yelled at us yesterday because of homework. He thought that we have to give more homework to kids. As you know the situation, the more he gives lots of homework to kids, the more they complains about that in my and Viki's classes. He is making the situation worse. Finally, Alexa told her mom about this, she may quit soon. She is not my favorite, but I don't want to lose my kids like this.
I think I talked about work so much. Sorry. Nowadays I'm surrounded by work, work, and work. I am still translating my brother's work at home, and It will finish it before this sunday. I don't know this work makes me study more or not. But I'm pretty sure I can read the paragraphes faster than before.
And also I am still studying the vocabularies and listening, too. It's still hard for me though. I want to see your school more, ride your bike, go to Food for Thoughts, meet your old friends, greet to your parents and enjoy my future with you.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
UM DAYS
SO I am two days completed at the University. I finished all of my classes. Now I will have to just do the homework which is unfortunately massive. I don't like this.
Life at UM is a lot different than it was before I left. My friends are gone or have changed a lot. I don't recognize anything and want to be left alone more and more.
I am already popular with the new foreign students. haha
I am basically hanging out with my Korean friend and touring the places I used to go. I ride my bike by my apartments I used to live every day. I see my old friends places but they are no longer there.
I have been to the Food For Thought a few times ~ Its still nice. I think once the semester gets underway it will be more fun.
UM is a wonderful place Honey~ I think its too small though. Traffic is easy to handle. I hope you can enjoy this.
I had a bad dream last night and feel like I am losing my mind sometimes. I am just thinking a lot about us and hopefully no matter what make it happen...I know in my heart you're the one and only for me.
I will write more but I need to do some homework tonight at least I feel like I should
Life at UM is a lot different than it was before I left. My friends are gone or have changed a lot. I don't recognize anything and want to be left alone more and more.
I am already popular with the new foreign students. haha
I am basically hanging out with my Korean friend and touring the places I used to go. I ride my bike by my apartments I used to live every day. I see my old friends places but they are no longer there.
I have been to the Food For Thought a few times ~ Its still nice. I think once the semester gets underway it will be more fun.
UM is a wonderful place Honey~ I think its too small though. Traffic is easy to handle. I hope you can enjoy this.
I had a bad dream last night and feel like I am losing my mind sometimes. I am just thinking a lot about us and hopefully no matter what make it happen...I know in my heart you're the one and only for me.
I will write more but I need to do some homework tonight at least I feel like I should
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