Playing by myself

Doing something by myself all the time is not funny sometimes. I am not accustomed to go to movie theater. I've never been there by myself. I've never thought about that at all. If I have no friend to go there, I'll just stay home and watch movie on the internet. It's my method.

Today I got up a little early than normal. I played the Ocarina by myself. I could play but still it was hard to find good sound and read music. More practice will help me play well.

Watching TV is good way to spend time without thinking anything. At least, while I was watching TV, there was no worry or nervous. I just laughed out loudly like a crazy person in the livingroom in the morning. If you looked at me at that time, you would laugh at me a lot. It was really funny show.

Cooking food is another way. Honey do you remember? This is one of our best ways. Mom and I fried dumpling and made sauce. Instead of breakfast, I ate this and lots of fruit such as a big huge round golden pear and fresh red apple.

I also think Riding a bus and Hiking are good ways to play by myself. When I get on the bus, I can see the view through the window. Bus passes many singboards and people on the street. Hiking hearing music through my earphone is great. My body is tired, but feeling is so good. Fresh air, high blue sky, and exercise make me excited. Even little nameless plant, too.

Using computer and talking to you are the best way for me. Everyday we can talk to each other and check daily life, emotion and even plans. I know when you get up and what you do for the first time. ^^ I'm not a fortuneteller but computer made me a fortuneteller. Just for you.

There are lots of ways to play well without someone. My friend likes to go to movie by herself. She thinks being together in the theater interrups focusing on movie. Honey don't think I am sad cause I wrote this. I'm just explaining the way. Of couse, sometimes I am sad and lonely cause you are not here beside me. But It's ok we will meet soon here.

I wrote this for you. I hope you find good hobby to enjoy your time there. As I told you before, sometimes you look so sad, because you think too much. Playing the Ocarina or drawing pictures will help you smile and happy. ^^




But I'm pretty sure to hike doesn't make me bored.

Saturday's Slumbers

Honey, Today its starting to get ugly. The weather is bad its cloudy, wet, and rainy... My friend didn't sleep well last night I think he gets to hyper and doesn't know how to settle down. So last night I was really angry cause I had hard time to sleep and now he is resting and taking a nap. I save my nap times for you.

Babe I know I worry a lot about things. Primarily, I want to make things happen and maybe thats bad I don't know. I worry about that all the time cause I believe in us so much and maybe I don't know how to express well all the time. My love for you and worry for you I hope is normal cause I know you are strong person but you are still my better half.

Tomorrow my roommate will come. My friend is going back to his hometown and my brother will also go back to work. It will be a return to the school period and a time for me to re-examine my priorities in my house.


Honey my goal for the month is to find a job in Korea. I am really serious about this when I write this to you now.
I want to go to Korea and live there for 1-2 years possibly working in Seoul or Busan. I would prefer Seoul but I would like to go where you would come for me and eventually to stay with me. I know we are meant for each other and that's my dream honey is to live with you in Korea and go from there.

Next week I should hear about some job offers and I want to have your help in every step and everything I do. Everything I do is for you babe.


Due to the Economy I want to provide us with security. I can't promise where I will get it but I can promise I will give you it. When we live together in America, Korea everywhere. I hope you like this idea cause I don't want our dreams to be just dreams.



Right now I am not in a good mood. My friend has been on edge all day and has made things not as fun as they originally could have been. We still have fun but things are weighing on him too much too.

My brother called and we will all have dinner together in probably a couple hours. Today went by so fast. It was all a fast dream. I am waiting to see what tomorrow will be like. I have another 10 hours before I will go to bed. I hope you are doing well and can have a wonderful day.

Seriously babe I love your family so much. Your sister is so nice and kind and your brother is so funny. I love you with all of my heart and because of you I am.

Your love carries me through all boundaries and all times. Soon, honey I will go back to school and hopefully complete a project.

Love you so much


I can't wait to spend Sundays again with you hiking, shopping and playing.

You're the best Babe. I didn't mean to rush you today in the morning. I love you more than the sun moon and the stars.

Weekend Overture

Honey this weekend is so full of activities.

My roommate is coming. My brother is coming and my friend is here. I will not be able to write more stories.

I talked to my friend (Fritz's ex) and she gave me a lot of ideas about things to do so next week or sooner I will try harder.


I need to try more to in class. I am worried about not making out well right now.


I dream of us and our wonderful future and I hope you have a wonderful time soon. I can't wait to talk to you... I love you so much and hope we can make good plans soon


I will Love you more and more and never stop... You are amazing and so passionate and perfect for me.

Truly, you deserve the Mrs. Maxim of the year award that I will create someday

Life Dreams

There are days when I shudder at the fact of what our world is becoming.

The entire world is changing and its sometimes hard to understand why or how.

There are many things that I would like to say to this posting.

To begin with lets talk about America.
America was founded on good ideals that have naturally changed throughout the course of history. America is no longer the dreamland that it once was. Unfortunately it has become a hated nation due to events that happened prior to my birth as well as during my lifetime.

Certain things like health, money, food and family are universal concepts. They are so simple to follow to but Political charades has made people blinded by close mindedness and false concepts.


I would like to talk about my ultimate fantasy world. In an age where the Economy is full of surprises and fluctuations it is important that we hold onto what is truly important. I wish money wasn't important I wish that people could see things for what they truly are. I truly do believe in PANGEA a place where I truly see a Utopian formulating.

I went from rags to riches because I stepped out of the zone and went to Korea. I went there with the idea of learning about myself and finding a new way in this world. I heard that many foreign teachers are breaking contracts and thus leaving a bad mark on Korean society.

In my case I believe some directors deserve it. I will be brutally honest and I hope Mr. J sinks after the hell he put me through. I have yet to meet a more selfish man than him.

I feel bad for leaving my loved one there.


Our world stinks honey. Right now I am not feeling good about anything when it comes to the state of the Economy. I am finding it hard to make a living and just like you I worry about our future cause the way the things are going its full of to much uncertainty.


Here is the truth that we need to live by. 1. I love you so much and nothing can change that. If I don't have much money I will always find a way. I wish the state of affairs was better in this world. I lost faith in America along time ago and wish that the world would pull together more than we have so far. The world is never going to be perfect but our world can be. I am going to try more and more to make things possible. I wrote a Korean today about working in Korea but I havent heard from him yet.


I may be too harsh in my opinions but in my experience the only thing that is going to make the world work is the Love that you and I so fortunately have. I don't like the Economy ways in America right now, Korea may be suffering from some problems as well but no matter what we can live comfortably.


I know our way will lead to happiness that will make people envious of us.


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I thought a lot about things today. I had lunch with Park and he mentioned that movie star you were telling me about. I feel bad for people who always feel that they need to take their own life as a way to escape. It hurt me so much to here my old roommate that killed himself. I hate even writing those words. I was his only roommate he had outside his family and I couldn't talk to him cause we separated ourselves. Tomorrow I am going to meet his ex-gf cause I still feel badly about abandoning him a long time ago.


So much news and so many things to tell you about. I value the same things that you do. I want everything to work out well and I will fight for you no matter what. Building a family with you and sharing what the world has to offer is the best way I think. Someday I want you to come to America.


Anyways,
I think of the world a lot differently than many people do. I don't want the American Economy or politics to be involved in wars, stealing natural resources from other countries or involved in stupid things.

My involvement in America is simple. I want to find a good job, raise a family, and share the American dream of Life, Liberty and the pursuit of happiness in my own way. I want to unify other cultures and make people stop hating me or America.


I say me because I ever since I was a child I thought about caring for other people. When I played with my brother we played with toy animals and gave them human voices. I always had my stuffed animals get along and be friends. I was a cute baby who believed that Everyone could love each other. I later witnessed hateful things that I didn't like cause I believed I was capable of good relationship with everyone. I just want to make that happen.

Honey I wrote a lot of things. I thought I could write something better make it flow but I think its just a lot of thoughts.

Tomorrow I have one class. I have my roommate coming, my friend is coming and my brother may come down. I am tired of listening to politics. I am tired of seeing people act scared or yell at me. People have yelled at me so much since getting back I hate it, and I don't really want to be here now.

This world is so big that honey we have to do whats right for us. I wish I hope I don't cry tonight when I go to bed ...I want to fill my head with dreams of just making wonderful things happen.

i don't know what else to say right now. I am so in love with you and happy I have the best girlfriend in the world. I will write more soon

Becoming Renaissance Person

In the Middle ages, Leonardo was all-rounder. That is, He was a unique type of Renaessance person. He was scientist, artist, architect and even mathematician. He had involved in drawing church works and had left lots of his drawings to be prototype of human body.

The world is changing rapidly and we have to adapt this situation. Each field wants to hire some people who have specific skills. For example, a English academy boss wants to hire people like native speakers. He or she doesn't want them to have skills including writing stories and using computer. In short, they don't want Renaissance people.

But here, my academy wants to hige this kind of people. We have to know how to fix copy machine, talk to parents well, write handwriting neatly on the board without line at all, make syllabus, check absent kids, write the date on the left top of the board and check kids homework within 5~10 minds perfectly. These are not enough. At least, I can write down 10 more things.

All these happening are just in a month. Most of them just in a day. My boss tells us he wants to hire English speakers, but in fact, he makes us become Renaissance People.

Soon I could fly in the sky without engine like Leonardo's drawing. I feel like becoming him. I still can't finish my work on proper time, but my velocity is getting faster and my know how is improved for last 2 years.

Honey, I told you don't be a Superman for me. If I write this, you might worry about me more than before. But I am still strong and good. You know how much I work hard here and am affected by work everyday. I am sorry but I can't say anything except work.

These days, home baking attracts me so much. I want to learn lots of thing which I don't know. Cooking, Studying, Counting, Knitting, Sewing, Drawing and taking pictures. And I really want to be an all rounder for you.

Mail Call

Honey Today I went to the Post Office. I mailed your package you will get it next week^^ I can't wait I am sad that you will not get my second gift though but I will get it to you somehow.


School is too easy and boring so I am trying to look for a job. I applied to one today. I don't think I will get it though. I am trying so hard cause I want to provide for you and help you with everything. College? etc.

I love you so much honey. Today I also went for a hike in my new shoes. They are comfortable but I can't wait to get back into the teaching realm. I went up the mountain which honey I have to show you someday. There isn't a mountain to high that we cant climb over.

I hope we can teach together again I think someday we need to have our school and even better a restaurant together.

I cooked spaghetti today. It was good

I hope you are enjoying the Alchemist a lot. I can send you other books too.


There are many things on my mind but I know you already know them. I hope everything gets better for us and that we can enjoy many wonderful things. I will get more busy this month
I am driven by our love cause its the best feeling I have ever felt in my life. Its something I never want to lose.

Sweet Cake and Life

Birthday has to be celebrated by everyone. Today was Mr.J's birthday and there was no special event. I thought he is successful man and boss of Yale foreign language academy. But at the same time, he is very poor man in the world. Cause I didn't see anyone who came and celebrated his birthday.

In my case, whole my family and my lovely boyfriend, Nick, celebrated my birthday a lot. To spend good time with good people was good for me. Birthday was one of the biggest events for a year and after my birthday, I started to count days from on that day.

Especially when I was young, I didn't like my birthday at all. I lived in a small countryside town, there were no stores to buy something good food, fruits and clothes. Moreover, My birthday was in January and everyone was in winter vacation. So there was no way to get my presents from my kids, either.

I thought about life and sweet cake a lot. What is life? Which life is the best? Do I just have to wait for something happens and eat sweet cake given from others? Or I have to try to find my own life and fight against the fortune?

As I told you, I am reading "The Alchemist". It makes me think about my life and uncertain future. There are lots of ways in front of me, and I don't know still which ways I have to choose.

But I want to bake sweet cookie and cake for you. I won't make you have the experience like Mr. J. I'm pretty sure. We will cook for each other everyday and everyone can smell sweet bread or cookies near our house.

Life is short rather than long. It's not enough for us enjoy the life. So there's no time frown, angry, and bored. Honey, Let's enjoy more and smile more.

The sun is bright and it will be shining above us. ^^