Winter time

I am trapped in my house and its due to the coming of Snow. I find it odd that it has come this late but finally here it is. I ran to the school today for the first time and thought I wasnt going to make it because it was so cold. I went because Park wanted to have breakfast and it was my last time I will run down the windy snowy streets of Missoula for food.


I stayed at my home most of the day packing and preparing for my trip to go back home which may come as late as Monday now. Its hard to believe that school is over. I really hope that the snow melts fastly because I would like to go for a walk again. I don't want to go out at all now.


My room is looking pretty bare and I am smiling^^

I want to move into my new home where I truly would like to make it my better half's home as well someday.

I have been thinking about a lot of things lately. I was looking back at all the memories that happened in the past 3 months. Its hard to believe I used to be riding a bike to school to using my two cars of my two roommates.


When I get to Korea it is my hope to create a new blog. Honey its my belief that you can sell your quilt works, and our writing can open up more doors. I am reading my friends blog to get some ideas and think that we can create an amazing thing filled with stories, our love, and our ideas for our building blocks of our future.


Honey less than 10 days until I get to see you. I am so happy to think this. I will never again make you sad when I write and I will try more to use what I learned here.


I will go to bed soon as I sit here and wait for you. I hope your Sunday has been fun and you were able to get the answers you wanted. Love you so much
talk to you soon

My one and only True Sa Rang hae

I thought Missoula would give me some answers that I had been asking myself for a while. I came back to Missoula 4 months ago making a new start after spending time in Korea. Tomorrow is probably the last day I will be in Missoula for a long time. I am Looking forward to leaving actually. Its time I move on. I have said goodbye to everything I want to remember in Missoula. When I return again I want to be with Shuske and wander aimlessly and just enjoy the great feelings Missoula is capable of.


I am going home now. I will go home to unpack, re-pack and say goodbye to Kalispell, my hometown. This is very important to me and kind of sad because I really don't care if i ever return there.

I am ready to go back to Korea and make the best possible future there could ever be. I know that I am lucky, I just haven't realized it yet. My future is shining bright and I want to do all I can do in order to make our future burn brightly. My vision has always been cloudy but I have found someone who makes me see clearly.


I go to bed tonight after re arranging my room for the last time. I have packed a lot of things and will finish to do this tomorrow...

Nothing else matters to me now than building a future and creating joy in the best source of happiness in my life. There's no boundary's. I love you so much and in 7 days I will be closer to you than now. you're all I think of and care about.

Standing Tall

I am done with school again. I will only go back to school if I am to go with you to a grad program in the future. I had a long day that I would just as soon forget. my roommate fixe his car after I bought him the part. He seem to be ungrateful because he complained so much about me afterwards. I almost punched him in the face. Honey I am sure he is going nuts.


I feel pressure living here and dealing with my friends who seem to be immature and have strange views of me. Honey to be brutally honest the only thing that keeps me standing Tall is You.


Honey I love you so much. Part of the reason I love you so much is because you can make me go from feeling terrible to feeling so high. When you kiss me I will probably die and feel like going to heaven.

my new roommate is cool. he can be weird but he is more understanding and more fun that Paul. I feel so bad for Paul.

Today he didn't want to go get money using his change. Honey he has no money but he many coins. he could have paid for a 3 dollar movie easy but he refused because he was afraid of his image in public. Its weird because when he goes out with me he only wears sandals and a t-shirt with sweatpants. Its funny he cares about how he spends his money but not how he looks. I hope you can see what I am talking about.


Anyways, after monday I will be done for sure. I will turn in my work as it is and be able to move on with things.


I am going to start our new blog soon too!

Love you so much and I will write again soon

12/6/2008

Nick

Kim-Palmer

MY Darling Babe
You are the foundation that holds me up. I adore you so much and you ignite my passion when all is missing from me.

Coming of December

Honey your story made me sad a little. Sometimes I feel if I didnt leave you wouldn't be feeling this. I worry a lot about your health because you shouldn't have to feel so bad a lot. Honey I don't sleep well at night I cry too much because I left you. I shouldn't tell you this but I tell you because I care so much. I truly never want you to feel that way again. I have been praying for my nightmare to end ----where I can just stay with you and not care about anything else.


I hope you don't feel sad reading this story now. When I am coming in a few weeks at most I will have such a wonderful time with you. I have so much things to look forward to and I don't want you to worry now. Honey I am the happiest man in the world cause of you and I just want to make everything right for you. I don't want you to feel badness. I wish I could make your headache go away and if I didn't leave I would have helped.



Honey very soon I will be there and I will be able to do more than I can now. I have so many good dreams for us that everything is possible and we will have a good time.


I am sorry I haven't been able to talk to you much. I was sad msotly cause I couldn't talk to you. my mom and brother were ok but it was hard to not be able to wake up to you.

Babe I can't express to you how much I love you all I know is that this is the month tat I have wanted for long time I never want to leave you again.


I love you so much don't worry please. Honey I will come asap. I just feel so happy that I got you with me. I miss you and just want you to be happy..

Honey I got so much to tell you soon

talk soon

love you

Sickness

Honey, I've had a headache for a week. I really hope I am better but my headache doesn't leave me at all. I don't know why I have still a slight headache. I already took medicine, slept a lot and eat enough but it's so so. I think because of cold I have dizzy and headache.

Did you have good time with your mom and brother? I had good time with my brother. He came home on Saturday and we went out to see a movie. I saw "007 Quantum of Solace". It was good, but I was too tired to pay attention this movie.

Today I sewed a lot. I made two Christmas cards for your parents. I am still making your brother's. I love sewing and seeing my quilt works but my right index finger hurt and have injury. It will be cured soon.

Tomorrow morning, I will be happier than today. Cause I will use your Cherry blossom body products. ^^ Every kids would ask me to use what kind of perfum. It smells so sweet and lovely like you.

December is around the corner. This month is the happiest month we will have and we will do lots of things together soon. I can't wait to see you honey. The weather is colder, we will love more each other. ^^

I really miss your bosom too much. LOVE YOU HONEY. talk soon.

Kalispell

Today I have been home for the first time in 3 months or more. I have only been hoem for a total of 10 days in the last 2 years. Its always kind of shocking for me to come home and witness how much things have changed.

My cousin and I noticed a for sale sign on the house which means anyone can buy it if they want it. My mom hopes to be moved out here in the next year. The house looks a lot different too.


The rooms are clean, a little empty and changed. My mom changed my room without asking me which makes me a little perturbed. I am getting rid of more things though. I am also packing my personal things here so if my mom moves I can put them in a storage for our future living. I am excited for this.


Honey, I cleaned the house today, I sold my old computer (the one I had in Korea) and got 100 dollars for it! I am happy because I made some money now. I want to sell more things. I think I have a date with Hollister again soon :)


I am too addicted to shopping. Tomorrow I will eat with my mom and brother. I hope it goes fast. Mom is cooking a turkey even though there's only 3 of us. She has been at work all day too so I haven't talked to her much.

Dad was fine. He bought us breakfast and just talked a while. I think I will see him again on Saturday when I am going back to Missoula. On the way back I will see my cousin. I am excited for that. Honey as I told you I have great cousins and hope you can meet them soon.


I am a little tired today now because I did a lot of work around the house. Washed the dishes, went to the post office, sold my computer, and now will cook some food cause I am starving.


Love you so much.

Kalispell is good but I am looking forward to getting back to Missoula, and even more importantly YOU.

Endevearing to be Closer to You

Today was my last real weekend in November. I will be going home this week to be basically saying goodbye to Kalispell. Its going to be kind of ironic but I think that this week will be my last time in Kalispell for a long time. I may go back to fly out of the airport soon but its the last time I will be calling it home. I believe my mom will move out soon.


I hope that this last 10 day of school is smooth. I don't want to be in school anymore. The next time I want to be in school is to be studying by your side. Honey I want to share college life together. I want the two of us to live comfortably studying something important and enjoying the nice atmosphere that the University has.

This week went by so fast. I think this last week will even be faster. I only have two days of school and then I will be able to visit some cousins of mine and see my family. I am sorry but I can't use the computer at all for a few days :(

I will write many stories though about Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving is something that I want you to enjoy with me someday. Its a good setting for family. Our family^^

Tonight I am just going to rest and relax. I have to go to campus early tomorrow because Paul finally has a job and will get up early tomorrow. I won't be able to talk a lot tomorrow I am afraid.


Our future is going to be so full of happiness, I know that the economy and everything isn't as promising but Our Love will make us endure and beat any challenges we face. As always, I have so much Love for you my face is glowing with happiness all the time because of you (*__*). When you go to bed tonight just think happy thoughts and don't care about bad things.


honey when I see you I want to teach you billiards, swim more, hike, everything *~*

talk soon honey

Knitting my life with you

Honey
Nowadays I am trying to think about my future more than before. I don't know what I have to do yet, but I am pretty sure I really want to be with you and spend my life with you. I can't imagine my life without you.

I was loved, am still loved and will be loved by you all the time. Maybe someday our love will fade a little bit, but we will love each other forever.

The weather is getting colder. I shivered a lot at work and felt the wind like the edge of the sharp knife. When it blew, I couldn't feel anything on my face, but hurt all my face. Today I forgot to bring my mittens which you bought me last year. I regreted a lot all day.

Today I did impulse buying. Viki showed me a great blue shirt and I just bought it without thinking. At that time I didn't think about my money in my wallet. Whenever I buy something for you, I just buy them unconciously and after buying them I notice the fact that I buy them for you.

I am wonder how great our future is and dream of it in my dream all the time. Being with you will make me happy and make enjoy my life. Love you so much and thank you all the time.

Family

This weekend I saw my dad and my brother. It was good to see them. I really hope that you can see them soon. I know that they will love you so much. It was nice to just be able to get away from my roommate. He doesn't do anything.

Honey the more I think about Family the more I am really hoping to make a family with you. WE got the best chemistry makeup in the world. It makes me so happy when you talk about my father.

Family is so important to us and its something that I want to share with you the most.

This weekend I also visited my new favorite store Hollister. I hope we can go there together someday. I think when we live in a bigger city and different place we will be able to try many wonderful opportunities. DYNAMIC BUSAN will be a good start.


Honey nowadays I can only think about you. I don't want you to think about Bankruptcy that will never happen to you as long as I am alive. I love you too much for you to let that happen.

So this week will be especially interesting its my last week that I hope to care about things. my brother jsut walked so I have to go talk soon^^ love.

Dynamic Busan

On Saturday, after work, I went to Busan to carry my brother's clothes including two shirts, a sweater and a jacket. Before I went to work, I was so~~ busy. Swimming, buying clothes, coming back home from Bean Pole outlet and then going work were my schedule.

You know how much I love swimming in the morning, especially when my condition is bad. I swam for 20 mins and shopped for 40 mins. There wasn't any room to breathe slowly. Cause my work time was fixted, so I had to be there before 1 p.m.

I drank a cup of milk at home and had hard time at work. My throat got worse so I couldn't teach well. In fact, I couldn't talk at all in TD1 class which was the last class on Saturday.

Meeting people who I already knew is good when I am alone at the public place such as train station. While I was ordering snack, Susan in MA1 class found me. We got on the same train and her family sat next to me. I slept a little and watched animation on my i-pod.

My brother was waiting for me at the station with his girl friend. Brother and I had Steamed pork soup with bone, some vegetables and kimchi inside.

On the next day, Complaining girl and other friend came to Busan. We had great lunch in front of the Busan University which was my school once and where I used to inline skating and study Semantic. Some buildings were changed and interior was better than before. They looked more morden and high image.

After lunch we visited Gwangan Beach where we went as our last travel. Wide Sea made us slient. Although the weather was a little cloudy and windy, my mind was so happy. I thought of you a lot and reminded how much we enjoyed the sea. We'll have the same time there soon.

See you soon in Dynamic Busan. ^^

The Notebook

I have never seen the movie The Notebook because I don't need to. Its a Hollwood Love story that i know I have the real thing compared to the Hollywood version.

I am so happy today. I got a new notebook cover! It has a nice clip, good planner, and best of all best stitching. I love the design so much too. I have a wonderful cover, welcome sign (which I want to hang from our door on our first house whenever we get it^^, and a great keyholder too. I like sew works a lot because its more peronal and more meaningful. I cherish these items so much and always use them well. I have a glasses case as well for my reading glasses.

I will use my planner well. I have a weekly system of needing to update my appointment and meeting plans. This will especially get busy in January when I am teaching my classes. Yikes I can't imagine working right now.


Your package made me so happy. I will eat a lot this next week so hopefully I can gain a ew weight. my dad is coming tomorrow it will be nice to see him. I really do want you to meet him someday and as you already know I would help your father and mother too.

I feel so loved honey cause I got someone so special in my life I hope that everything goes well soon. I can't wait to see my new shirt and I am going to mail you something this Tuesday or Wednesday from Hollister! I love that place

WHO.A.U hollister, Abercrombie and Fitch SAME SAME

I like the Beach look and want us to enjoy that sensation someday. Babe I Love you so much when I tell you that I am dreaming of so much things I want to do with you. Show you America, hold your hand when crossing a street or walking in the middle of any place. Dancing in Snowflakes, Laying on the Beach, and many many more.


I love writing stories, talking to you, shopping, and cooking too.

I hope you have a good time in Busan!

New, New, New

Honey today I made my own bank account. I just put some money, but after a year I can get a lot of interest. Because of economy depression, most of banks suggest more interest than last year. It's good news for me though.

This year, I have got lots of new things from you. Apple I-Pod, New clothing brand Abercrombi, New calling card, New body lotion and bath products, New snack from America and Letters. I love these things a lot. Especially your letter and clothes. Oh I shouldn't foret to say this: Cherry Perfume ^^

New things usually makes me excited. Cause they have things to attract people. For example, we expect a lot before we open it and our heart beats rapidly more and more. I love this feeling. What can I get this time? What does he write for me? and etc.

Everthings from you are good for me. They make me look good all the time and I can show off everywhere. Sometimes I think I am like a princess. You have treated me like a beauty in the castle all the time. No one treated me like this well. Even my parents didn't treat me like you.

I am drowning in your love and I can feel how much you love me and treat me sincerely. I'll try to take care of you more and love you more. ^^

Chasing Missoula Downtown

Today I blew off some steam. I went downtown with Peter and ended up pulling some pranks. We had a lot of fun. It reminded me of old times. I talked to Peter about relationships, life and everything thats wonderful in life.

Honey we both agree that the best things in life are worth fighting for and that's why I am never going to stop loving you ever. I don't know if you worry about that or not.

I tried on some clothes as well and think we should buy some when i get there.

I am a little tired from laughing so much. I haven't laughed so much in a long time. I hope you are having a wonderful day

There's so much more I want to say to you right now but I will write more soon!

honey one thing I am realizing though is that I don't want to return to old times because I am needing something new now.

I really hope you had a good time at work and I am so happy to talk soon!

Loopity Loop

Today I went on a long walk. I was only gone for 1 hour but I went in a figure eight. I was a little lost but it gave me some time to think. Firstly, I am looking forward to leaving my apartment. Since Paul came I have not had the time I was hoping to have. He complains and doesn't do anything.


I did some homework and I think I am pretty much done with that. Today felt like a really long day though. I saw my grandma and her sister which was really nice. They treated me to a dinner. I enjoyed talking to them because we were able to converse normally without complaining.

I am looking forward to going back to school this week. This week should be relatively easy since I have another holiday off on Tuesday!
I wanted to go home but I am not so sure I can.


Honey when you get my letter I hope you realize just how much I love you and miss you. I want to be there for you so much to help you figure out everything. I am over the moon for you and going for a walk is the only way now that I can feel ok about things.

I love you so much and hope that you have a wonderful start of the week... I can't wait for you to get my package again ^^


Honey
When I read your last story it made me a little sad because as you already know... We can face a bright future together and someday it will look brighter. I really want you to not worry about that at all. I will do everything in my power to make sure we are taken care of and living comfortably.


Lets order online soon ok! I will order and bring and or send :) just let me know what you think

lOVE YOU SO MUCH

Sweet candy or Sour lemon

Honey today I spent almost whole day with kids whom you already knew. We went to Mcdonalds and had chicken burger sets. We made hair bands and they were so happy.

After meeting them, I thought of sweet candy or sour lemon. We love eating candy so much. They are sweet and the more we eat the more we want to eat it. They attract our attention. But this is not good for our health. Especially before we go to bed, we shouldn't eat this for protecting our teeth from cavity.

On the other hand, lemon is too sour and makes us frown. The taste is terrible. Its juice is essential and it gives us vitamin a lot. So we need to eat this, not candy.

Do you know why I say about this? I think working at Yale is like lemon. This place is not good for my health but I can get regular income every month. It's enough for me to live a month and save a little bit at the bank.

Talking with Mr.J is like candy. Cause whenever we talk about something he just praises me a lot. But after talking, I have more work. This is his irony though.

Anyway at this time, I like sour lemon is better than sweet candy. And I really want to find good and better job for me, but I am a little scared. I have to leave home first and then find some place to live and then get a job again. I will need some time to accustom and make new friends again.

I won't think about future yet. I just want to think about Present now. And I will find sweet candy at work.

Fog Lights

I went for a walk late at night. The air is filled with humidity and rain. Their seems to be drifting clouds ahead of me and everything is visible only if there are lights on it. Its actually kind of fun for me though.


Today I didn't do to much. I went to the Food For Thought Like I always do. I do this because I have found a food plan that would be a good thing for us. I want to make a good meal plan ideas. Its also a resturant for us later.


I did some of my homework and rested most of the day. Me and a friend of mine went shopping. I bought some jeans, and dress pants. Honey when I go to Korea I will buy good clothes with you^^ lets do more of this. Use the internet and I will help you get good things soon^^


I am slowly preparing myself for a busy coming year.

Today I am now starting to get tired unfortunately. I have a lot more to do and I am just happy I have one more day.


Honey I hope that this work week goes well. It should be an easy one I hope. As you said in your last post. Don't care about not doing some work. Mr. J is lame and he deserves to get bad things because of his stupidity and lack of working concept.


I am getting excited to being with you again soon


love you so much

XOXO

I will write more again soon as always.

Daily Report on Nov 7th.

I slept very well last night. I watched TV a little bit in the morning and swam a lot. Mom and I went downtown and found some good clothes. When she wore them, she looked younger and more elegant than her age. I was so happy to treat her and see her smile.

Next, we went to Lotte Mart to buy some cosmatic and food. A bottle of milk, a packet of candies, two packets of caramel and so on. Before we left there, we arrived at Sale zone and I bought a beige jumper with fur hood. It was so smooth, soft and warm. Honey sorry, this is my impulse buying but I know I would wear this jumper a lot. Maybe whole winter time.

As I told you on the phone, I wore your pink abercrombi knit today. It's thin but warm and comfortable. I think I have to buy more this types of clothes before you come here. There are no stores such as Hollister and Abercrombi. I don't want to order on the internet through another purchaser. If they want to sell imitation, we can't check if it's original or not.

Shopping has been getting one of my favorites since you left here. I had spent almost every weekend with you here. So I have only a few friends around me and they all live far from here.

If you come here, we can enjoy this more and I won't fall in love with internet shopping again. haha

Meeting old friends

I met my best friend Peter yesterday. WE don't fight so I am happy that at least one of my friends still knows how to laugh around here with me. We went downtown and had a few drinks and some food and I went to bed too late. I felt sickly in the morning but was ok. I went to school and studied for 3 hours and got my homework underway. I now know how to do it! I will do it this weekend and spend the most part resting.


When I was with Peter I thought of all the good times I used to have. Honey~someday I may want to make him best man.

I am sorry I couldn't talk with you much yesterday I was surprised at how many things happened at once.

After my studying I went back home and cleaned the kitchen, bathroom, mailed a letter again and watched some tv.


Meeting old friends is so nice but I am looking forward to begining my future soon.


I read your story and honey I don't want you to feel that. Our stories are honest. Sometimes they are good and sometimes so so. I am happy we have here to share our secrets, our letters, our phone calls and soon in person too. We are so meant for each other.


Jeff is gone so does that mean Mr. J will teach now?

Honey, I finish this story after I talked to you earlier today. I know that there are a lot of things going on in your life that are making you feel so stressed. As always I just want to do whatever it is that I can to alleviate those pressures. I am so happy thinking of everything.

I want us to get nice clothes so we feel warmer more comfortable and just feel better. I will watch tv and rest soon. LOVE YOU SO MUCH

Working like a cow is doing like a dumb.

Cold wind is blowing from the North. It's almost onset of the winter. We called this "Ipdong". It means beginning of winter.

After this, I had the test to go to University when I was a high school student. The weather was so cold and my test was ruined because of cold and warm air in the classroom.

Last year, I rarely caught a cold because of your help. We tried to eat healthy food and stay warm. When I was cold, you hugged me, made me wear warm clothes and took care of me so much. I think I will remind this every winter. Because it's one of important memories of mine.

Today I swam a lot and after swimming I felt dizzy a little bit. But I didn't care about this. At work, when I had break time, I felt slight headache. I know I will be better soon though. Tomorrow morning, I would tell you I am ok, so don't worry.

While Jeff was teaching MB3 class, Viki and I ordered friend chicken. When we just ate chicken, Mr. J came to the video room and started to complain about Miss Jeong. I couldn't understand, cause she has already made lots of mistakes, so he didn't need to explain about her mistakes at all at that time.

I thought it was just excuse. He would want to check ou break time. The more kids dropped the academy, the more he cares about our teaching skills and tests. I think some of kids quit there due to lots of homework which they can do at all in fixed time.

We shared chicken without treating him. Nowadays he just played in the classroom and Mr.J didn't touch him at all. His policy was so weird. If we work hard, he just ignores us. If we work harder, he tries to make us work harder and harder like a cow in the farm.

I really want to change this system. He doesn't know how to treat kids, especially young kids. If you and I set up our own academy, we will teach kids very well, but we won't earn money well. cause we don't have that kinds of skill at all. haha

There was a saying in Korea. "Work like a deligent cow and spend your money like a prime minister" I don't like this saying. Although we don't work hard, we can earn money and if we work under Mr.J, it was CWOT. Whenever we work hard, he expects more and more.

Let's work like a wise cat and spend money useful. Let's try not to work hard especially after work because of telephone teaching and syllabus.

Chilling in the heat waiting for watermellons

I couldn't think of a good title. Today I am mainly just staying at home and enjoying the warmth by the heater. It actually works unlike my old house.

School is going alright. I am struggling a little but nothing I can't figure out. This weekend I will finish a lot of homework and hopefully have some time to rest as well. I will be so happy when school is over.

I want nothing more than to go on trips and lay around with you... we got to do that a lot.


Today I went to the post office, watched a movie, studied for three hours and tried to not smile at my second best friend.

I am reading a little about Korea right now too for my class and I hope it will help me write a paper faster. I am not looking forward to writing a paper soon.

Today I also prepared for my contract in Korea. Honey I think this week you will be surprised. you got a package today, you will get a letter in a few days and you will also get a package in 7-10 days. Then you will get me in a month.

I can't tell you how much I love you. I think most of my friends stopped hanging out with me because I talk about you so much. J/k

Unfortunately I just don't get to see any of my friends anymore. I have seen Peter the most other than Paul and he was gone for all but this week.

honey as I prepare to go to bed I count my blessings that I have you in my life. You make everything I am working for all the worthwhile. You make me fight more.

I am a strawberry and you are a watermellon together we are the best STARBURST^^